dia 0 Tive minha recaída de PMO hoje! me sinto mal com isso, minha mente me enganou "vai ver bem rápido" cair nisso, é perturbador o que esse vício faz aos nossos pensamentos, é uma batalha interna muito forte, não sei se foi o meu dia que começou tarde e foi influenciado pelo desejo de dopamina - me sinto mal, o que eu faço? Tenho esse vício desde os 10 anos e hoje tenho 20 anos. i never stayed 5 more days without
I missed my day 3 check in but I am on day 4 now. 12 more hours and I will be on day 5. I have been writing in my journal every day since my relapse. I am not going to let myself fail.
Hi greenTree. We’ve been together for 12 years, living together for 9 and engaged for 3. Honestly, we stopped having a lot of sex over the years, but still have some on rare occasion. PMO was one of the main reasons on my end for things drying up in recent times, but she’s had her own issues that factored in. The most sex in the last couple of years is when we started trying for our baby. But after she got pregnant, we altogether stopped in a last few months before she gave birth. For me, PMO also really got bad at that point, just before our baby was born, probably due to stress about our family and also the COVID shutdown. However, I finally came to terms with the extent of my issues with PMO and quit 2 weeks before our baby was born. Fast forward to this week- She just saw her doctor for the 6 week post birth checkup and she’s cleared to resume all activities, but we haven’t yet...At this point we’re so busy with our 6 week old, it would be hard to find time. I imagine in another month or two it may come up, but my sense is that I should wait 1-2 years before resuming. We have talked about porn a few years ago, but I haven’t talked to her about anything recently. I plan to soon. But with the baby, I’ve got to find the right time.
Day 0 yesterday I relapsed again, this sucks !!, I feel that I am worse than when I started, undoubtedly I am in a self-destructive cycle where nothing matters to me. : (
Day 17. I sense some urges in my body, but I´m doing exercise to erradicate them. It works! I think that I have them because I don´t use the same amount of energy as non-holiday periods and I´m unconscienly looking for a form to deal with that. Luckly, temptations and P related images haven´t got a great presence in these days, but it´s a sign to remind me that I don´t have to let go weak my watch. St. Joseph, pray for us.
Welcome to this Fellowship. We are in the same path to destroy the ring, but it´s a long and hard path. We can do this alone, so everyone here helps the others. Here starts your travel from vice to virtue. Fight day a day, every hour, every minute matters in that. Little by little, you will learn a lot on how to win this battle. And don´t forget to pray!
Day 6 @RiseToGreatness I have made it to Urah-Kai for the hopefully final time. With my new game plan, I have limited temptations, and I am doing really well. I sometimes absentmindedly started to touch myself, but when I realize it, I stop. I had come on yesterday to write my daily update, but my iPad ran out of power and so I had to charge it overnight, hence why I did not post last night. In three days, I will have made it the longest I have in about a month, and I am excited. Best, Mathman1994
