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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
I'm going to start again from the beginning.
Day 0 Check in!
Just saying Hi. Looking forward to hobbithood, though I'll miss these Uruk-hai muscles.
Well, so far no. but when i reach 2 years of sobriety i´m planning to leave the thread, not close it though. the thread is too important to be shut down
so at that time i will pass the administration to other brothers. i hope you volunteer
Excellent brother. You crossed the Ford of Bruinen safe and sound . Keep going!!!!
At Bree brother!! Keep going
brother, the lonely feeling is very common to people. however, being alone is not the same as "feeling lonely", we can be surrounded by people and still feel lonely. i suggest you reflect upon what makes you feel lonely and take measures on it.
if you are "physically" alone, then that can be a high trigger, since being alone for addicts means indulging in the addiction. try to don´t be home alone with eletronic devices in the first months of reboot, especially in the first 30 days, since the pull of PMO is very strong in the beginning and it will make you go autopilot easily. block yourself from harms way, that´s a good insurance against relapses. also daily engage in good habits, and mentally fortify yourself on the reboot mindset. more details in my signature
meanwhile congratulations, you´re a Uruk-Hai now . Keep going!!!
One more day of walking brave Fellowship
I entered the Morgul Road!! Finally . A “road that glows with an eerie luminescence” running east and west through the Morgul Vale and over the Morgul Pass in western Mordor.
Minas Morgul is still far away but no worries, one day at a time
Mighty Companion, reflecting upon Chadwick Boseman premature death (RIP), i wanna talk to you about a life phylosophy that i´ve been following in the last months.
It´s called minimalism, i engage in it after viewing a documentary: minimalism, a documentary on the important things.
This is excellent piece of advise and eye opener about the importance of spending our time well.
Many times we do things, spend our time and money in things and situations that are not really in our best interest. We just do it by society pressure, concepts, or out of sheer habit “to have something”. Minimalism is about eliminating all the situations, objects, behaviours, etc that are not really given value to your life. and stick with those that does
so take a look around, you´ll find lot of stuff in and around your life that are not giving value to it, some things might even been ruining it.
Every object that you have, every action that you take, every relation that you engage, is that giving value to your life? if not, take action, because your wasting your time and energy in something that doesn´t serve you.
Start right now, ask yourself: “am i in this forum because i like to, i want to, or because i have nothing else to do?”
As Chadwick death remind us, time is not an asset, it´s a privilege.
Use it well my brothers and sisters.
Checking in day 65
It's eleven, it's heaven for Jamie Vardy! I am sorry guys, but i am gonna write it every time that i reach 11 days
Recently, I watched a video about procrastination and i think it intersects with our process. Simply, we procrastinate because if the task we are going to do is hard, or something new, our brain tends to do things that are easy, or in other words, something that we are fimiliar with, so that it will not feel bored or feared. For example, you have an exam in a week and you havent studied at all. You keep saying yourself that "I will study after watching some videos from youtube" or something. That is procrastination. Do the right thing, man! It will not eat you
I have failed so many times, and the reason of the most of my failures were that I was bored. I procrastinated most of the activities I wanted to do and my brain replaced them with one of the best fake enjoyable activity, masturbation. So, no procrastination, no pmo!!!
Yesterday was a tough one. I’ve been feeling increasing irritability and anger over the last few months and it seemed to hit a peak over the last few days.
Especially since I’ve been doing some manual release on muscles related to my TMJ issues.
It’s like I’ve opened up all these repressed anger issues. It was really hard at first, but the more I allowed the feelings and started to write pages and pages of stream of consciousness about it the anger, the more I seemed to feel alive and energized.
It’s crazy! It’s like I’ve used PMO to avoid my anger for so long and it’s manifested as TMJ issues.
Slowly but surely, I’m working through all this stuff and it’s powerful, can feel overwhelming, but eventually hopeful on the other side.
I know I’ve got a lot more to work through on this journey, but I’m in this for the long haul!
Reminds me of saying from the Presence Process. It’s not about feeling better. It’s about getting better at feeling.
That’s exactly how quitting PMO feels.
Like we can use PMO to avoid our feelings in the moment, to try to “feel better”.
Or we can embrace what we’re feeling in the moment, dig into it, learn what it is teaching us so we can grow and evolve, “get better at feeling”.
This is such a powerful journey!
Wishing everyone the absolute best on your journey!
13 days done Have a great day everyone
Day 29. In a little more than a hour, I will be an elf, so I am very excited. 30 day without PMO. In addition I am a little over a month clean from porn and I will see m therapist on the 15th and I cannot wait to tall him that I am six an a half weeks clean from porn. (We don’t discuss my abstinence from masturbation as he disapproves, and it is better for me to not debate him on it. My psychiatrist understands why I do though she asked me to explain.)
I am starting to think a few weeks down the road if it continues to go well with this women I met online, I might ask her to be my girlfriend some day. With that said, I am terrified of what she will think if it gets that far and I tell her about my addiction. I like this one, and I am afraid she will up and decide she is through with me.
Anyway, life is going well in all areas, and I start class tomorrow, so I am excited.
End of Day 19! I have been missing days comming here but I have also been incredibly busy. I setup a reasonable schedule and hopefully this will help my consistency.
Starting Again, Check-In For Day 0!!
Game Is On!!!!!
Best Streak - 15 Days
Even I have TMJ (if you are referring to what I can infer as TMJ headache)
It is hell but I didn't think it was related to pmo