I have had a lot of PMO relapse dreams in the past, and in the dreams, I made the decision to relapse, but then I wake up relieved and happy that it was just a dream. I have not had a relapse dream in a while, but they can be very distressing. Especially when you are on a long streak. Then you feel like you failed, but then you wake up and realize that it was just a dream. I know when I have relapse dreams, I am more likely to relapse in waking hours afterward, so I am glad that you do not think about it otherwise. Best, Mathman1994
Congratulations! I hope that I can make it to 44 days this streak without too many bumps. The longest I have gone without PMO is 31 days, so 44 days is really cool, especially knowing that everyday for you is a new record. Keep it going! Best, Mathman1994
Day 6 - Uruk-Hai @RiseToGreatness I have finally made it to Uruk-Hai again after much struggle for the last few weeks. In two days, I will have beaten my most recent streak from two weeks ago of a week. In three days, I will have gone two weeks without a full relapse, and the only reason I am on day 6 instead of day 10 is that I have had a couple resets here and there. While they were not full relapses, I looked at images for longer than I promised myself I would before I would consider it a reset because I did not snap out of it right away. Two days ago could have been a reset, but I snapped out of it before it got too out of hand, so I did not consider it a break in my streak. With that said, I have to be hyper aware, because even if I am not masturbating, I am playing it a little risky by even searching. Who knows, maybe I will reset to that point again, if it gets to be too much for me, but right now, I feel confident that I can beat this thing. Best, Mathman1994
Got send a link from a friend today which I knew could potentially have some images/gifs that I didn't want to see. I still clicked on the link because there was some information on the site he wanted me to read. Unfortunately saw a small glimpse of something, nothing crazy, but I am going to take my responsibility and reset my counter. I might be too hard on myself for this one, but I want to be more conscious/cautious of stuff that I click, because I knew beforehand the site could contain some triggers. So I didn't exactly relapse, I just want to start this challenge completely fresh and since I was only on day 2, I am going to reset my counter tomorrow when I wake up. It just makes me feel better. Thanks for reading.
Gentlemen, 16 days conquered. I wasn't going to check in today but I decided breaking the habit wouldn't be that healthy this early on the way. Strength to all.
Day 8 here. Libido ok. My peak was yesterday and a bit today. During my testo peak I decided to go for a walk at the beach and right after that I was feeling great. My real problem is not, in fact, high libido, but the suffering caused by ups and downs in my humour. Dam it! Sometimes I feel like being either Mike Tyson or Bob Marley. Only God knows how hard it is. Well, that's all folks! I hope you all the best. Have a nice week.
Hey, man? How was it to deal with your ups and downs during the journey? I thought I would suffer from abstaining from PMO because of the urges, but now I know changes of humour are much worse than any libido peak I could ever imagine. Was it the same to you or it still happens sometimes?
