Day 12, Feeling the energy begin to swell up which is usually an indicator of the "everything is fine I got this mindset" that tricks me into a peek and the eventual reset. My intention is to push past this mentality and find out what is on the other side of my longest streak (18 days). Note, I have gone on longer streaks since maturing (Marine Corps Recruit Training and other specialty schools that were devoid of internet access) and believe me, the first thing I did once out of the field was relapse. Anyways, on this morning's run I was thinking back to how much energy I had during those schools and how well I was able to operate despite the sleep and food depravation. Now that I am in civilian life I am interested to better understand how to use that retained energy (it is a little difficult since I am not on forced movements under a combat load) [now I am just a college student in front of the computer most of the time hahahaha]. Thanks again everyone! Happy to be a part of The Fellowship
20 Days. Having trouble focusing and with short term memory. Feeling a little foggy. Felt some cravings and desire to give in to PMO in a dream this morning, but when I woke up, it wasn't as bad. Holidays are great but weird, as they throw you out of your routine. Anyway, porn-free Sunday, let's get it done!
4 days clean. Before this challenge I could not go few hours with porn. Look at me now. I will not go back to watching porn. Too much suffering and hard work to go back.
TITLE - ORC Last streak - 2 Total PMO - 145 Goal - 21 days Day- 0/21 Sorry I watched porn for 20 min so I consider it as a relapse. I managed to go far as 2 days but that's not a big deal.
Só falar que quer entrar e passar a contar os dias. Aqui tem muito gringo então só se usa inglês, mas não é preciso ter um de muito alto nível pra entender o que o pessoal fala. Ah! E boa Sorte!
Me pone reír como yo puedo entendernos aunque Uds. hablan portugués y yo solo sé español. Supongo que me puedan entender también.
Well, Day 19 complete, but it was a close call. Peeked at some pornographic material and came within a heartbeat of giving in to M too. I had a massive headache which was making it hard to focus; I think I needed to drink more water throughout the day. Still a hobbit, still pressing on, but that's the closest I came to relapsing this streak for sure. Even though it rattled me quite a bit, that may have been just what I needed to renew my commitment. All this pent up energy and sex drive needs someplace to go. I feel like I'm spending even more time than before (if that's possible) thinking about women.
Day 49 - I've reached the Doors of Durin, the West-door of Moria. Tomorrow I'll be ranking up to a Dwarf. Honestly I'm so proud of myself for making it this far. I must push on and keep my mind focused on the chosen path. It's always easy to slip once we've achieved minor goals along the way. Must stay vigilant.
Day 32. I had in these nights some P dreams, but they´re not triggering me. I´m trying to avoid any thoughts related. Congratulations! Our Lady of Guadalupe, pray for us!
jeje me da gracia que a alguien mas le diera gracia esto, ami también me dio risa saber que podía entenderlo jeje
