Day 5. Feeling okay. Haven't been sleeping too well. I am trying to stay positive about being newly single. As difficult as it may be, it gives me an opportunity to address my addiction and pull it out by its roots.
it´s normal bro, accept the shame, don´t run from it. we are all human beings and we all do mistakes. Keep going my brother. big hug.
One more day Fellowship. brain fog, fatigue and anxiety are ruthless today, but at least the urges are smaller. The following brothers have upgraded and reach places in Middle Earth. Congratulations @Cucurbito @Gallade_Templar - Uruk-Hai @Cooperator_Dei - Warrior / Amon Hen Here´s a powerful post from a dear brother of mine @PowerfulSRE about the benefits of semen retention. although our challenge allows sex, i wanted to share this message of hope for all the members of the Fellowship that prefers the monk mode. Have a great day "Semen Retention; The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly This post is going to be an overview of my experiences, what I've learned, great resources for others on this journey, and how we can better utilize this energy to our advantage. BACKGROUND I am 26 years old and have had a successful life. I got a scholarship to play D2 College sports at a college that overlooks the ocean, received my finance degree, and have had good jobs throughout my young life. I now own 2 businesses that are both 6 figures(barely) which I'm proud of as I've sacrificed blood sweat and tears to get to where I am. After college(roughly 3 years ago) my social life went down tremendously. I turned to porn frequently to fill the void of loneliness. Slowly but surely this turned into a full on addiction. I was dating a cute girl that I was very attracted to for a year(ended 8 months ago) and through this period my porn use was much less. I always knew in the back of my mind that watching people F*** each other was not healthy for my brain or soul. After we broke up and towards the end of the relationship my porn use got way worse, and made me very moody and all over the place emotionally(like a woman). I started Semen retention about 7 months ago and it has drastically affected my life. I have had a streak over 100 days and multiple streaks of 50+ days. Through these 7 months, I have learned a great deal about the life force of semen. I hope to share my findings with you guys to help you along this journey and to make this world a better place. BENEFITS (THE GOOD) For me, the benefits don't really start until about 2 weeks or so in. Then there is another jump about every week after that as long as this energy is being used wisely for the good of your soul/body/mind(will get into this later...) at around 80 days the energy is so intense that I felt like I could kill a Lion with my bare hands... and of course, that's slightly bullshit but that is literally the type of mindset you start to have. SKIN - Skin has improved incredibly through this practice. I no longer wash my face consistently and I have great healthy skin even during the winter up in the mountains(I live by Lake Tahoe). My whiteheads are basically a thing of the past at this point, if I get one or two they heal fast and don't look all that bad because my skin is so healthy otherwise. HAIR - Hair is overall stronger/healthier/sexier. Also, I am getting new hair follicles on my body which were not their before. This was kind of weird at first but now I've accepted it. Hair vibrates and is a sign of Vigor. Voice - Voice gets deeper slowly but surely as you retain longer and longer. Around 60 days is when my voice got way deeper than before. This also makes it easier to pronounce words and actually makes it much easier to sing and yell out. Mental Clarity - My mental clarity is sharpened tremendously during a longer streak. I'll define a longer streak by 30+ days. memory=improved, Wittiness=improved, Vocabulary=improved(it's like you just automatically find the words in your brain you want instead of having to look for them). Everything to do with your brain= Huge improvement... Mental Clarity improves greatly, ONLY if you are not stimulating yourself via porn, binge-watching, fantasizing etc... Will talk more about these destructive behaviours later. Woman Attraction- Woman attraction gets stronger for me the longer I am holding. I'm sure most of you have heard tons of information about this and all I can say is it's true if you use your energy positively/productively. If you watch porn and do destructive behaviour this superpower goes away instantly. Having said that, I have attracted many different females of all sorts of ages. I have slept with a good amount of woman in my life and have been successful but this revs up the attraction big time. You instantly know when a girl is attracted to you with all those little cues females do... I.E. Twirling hair, laughing for no reason, smiling for no reason, biting fingernails, being submissiveness etc... My ability to be confident isn't something I try to do because during a long streak it just happens naturally. It's as if I really don't give a shit if the girl likes me and that in itself is attractive to them. I can feel their energy much better and know they can feel mine. Remember, 90% of communication is NON-VERBAL. Even just the way you stand and sit is communicating to the opposite sex. Remember, girls only have so many eggs and it is biologically ingrained in them to mate with vigorous guys, even if the guy is not particularly good looking. As long as his energy/confidence is strong= she gets wet. When I am very charged up I also get a volt of energy from my balls up my spine when I see or talk to an attractive female. This was weird as it never happened to me before but the forces of masculine/feminine, yin/yang are insanely strong when you hold your seed. I could talk about this for hours and maybe will write more about it in a future post, for now, ill leave it at that. Respect from others- You start getting natural respect from guys and girls and people start to trust you and want to be around you due to the energy you have FITNESS - I've always been in good shape but this has heightened my fitness. My cardio is way better, my muscles are stronger and look better. My recovery improved so much its actually hard to even believe. Fitness goes up tremendously as long as you are working out and grinding. MANIFESTATION - Manifesting in your life happens WAY faster. You start to manifest things during long streaks and you almost intuitively know that you will. Where before it was a big challenge to manifest, during a long streak you just know you are going to. Pure Confidence. This could be money, attraction, fitnesses, anything! SLEEP - Insane lucid dreaming, literally like nothing you've experienced during a long streak. Also, need to sleep less. For me, this doesn't really kick in until at least 30+ days. ENERGY - During the long streak, you see the world for what it really is... just energy. Nothing is materialistic it is all waves of energy constantly changing. You see energy, feel the energy, and are confident in your own energy. This makes manifesting easy. I.Q. - Increases greatly Creativeness - Increases Greatly DOWNSIDE OF SEMEN RETENTION (THE BAD) The downside of semen retention is that with great power comes great responsibility. If you do not use this energy productively and in positive ways, it can cripple you. My biggest hurdle in this journey is being Hyper sexualized during my streaks. If you give in to your lower self (bottom 3 Chakras=survival) and start to watch porn or fantasize about ass, the stimulus you will get will be just like cocaine, meth, or any other strong drug. It will be a wormhole that only gets tougher and tougher to get out of. My advice would be that if you start fantasizing or if you watch porn to not be hard on yourself and try to quit immediately. Take a cold shower, go for a run, do push-ups/pull-ups, or do something creative. The longer you are in that state the further down the rabbit hole you will go. Why is this so bad? It leads to INTENSE ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, and horrible thoughts. Example= I was on a fishing trip with my father a few months back and watched porn one morning while he was sleeping. I watched for a long time... probably over an hour and didn't release. For the next couple of days, my anxiety was so bad that I started getting panic attacks while fishing. I NEVER have had a panic attack before and fishing is one of the most calming activities for me to do. This shows the negative dark energy and the power of it when you give in to porn. All I can say is DO NOT WATCH PORN it is like committing suicide to your soul and well being. This is something I am still struggling with. Its now about a month or so since watching porn but every day is still like a battle for me to not even think about it. I know my brain will rewire if I stay on this path... THANK GOD! Another potential negative is that your ego can get out of control. For me, I already have a pretty strong ego so semen retention can heighten it and trust me you need to be careful if you already have a strong ego like me. You can do negative things to yourself and to people if you come off as too arrogant or cocky. It's best to stay relaxed and confident... Sure of your ways but not shoving anything down peoples throats. Best to act smooth, controlled, sure-footed, and precise in your movements and words. Anyways... I could also talk about this forever so I'll keep it at that. WAYS TO TRANSMUTE ENERGY POSITIVELY (this is VITAL) Yoga LIFTING WEIGHTS running Cold Showers Meditation Chi Gong BREATHING EXERCISES ( This one has been extremely important for me. If you do WIM HOF breathing and breathe of fire during a long streak... Get ready to get really high off your own supply. This has been crucial for me. creativeness ( Me writing this post is helping to transmute my energy as I'm being creative right now!) playing instruments NATURE- This has also been crucial for me. Going outside into nature is key BEING MORE DISCIPLINED EATING HEALTHIER ( NOT EVEN GOING TO GET INTO THIS NOW... EXTREMELY CONTROVERSIAL AND I BELIEVE EVERYONE's GENETICS ARE DIFFERENT. LAUGHING ( HAVN'T HEARD ANYONE TALK MUCH ABOUT THIS. TRY AND LAUGH YOUR ASS OFF AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. BE SILLY! DON'T TAKE LIFE TOO SERIOUSLY!! READ (ANOTHER BIGGIE FOR ME PERSONALLY. HELPS ACTIVATE MY MIND AND PUTS ME IN THE PRESENT) SUN GAZE LISTEN TO SOULFUL MUSIC( MY FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW IS "SPIRIT BIRD' BY XAVIER RUDD COMMUNICATE WITH OTHER PEOPLE... CALL PEOPLE AND TRY TO GIVE THEM POSITIVITY GRATE-FULLNESS- HAVE A GRATEFULNESS JOURNAL AND PRAY TO GOD AND TELL HIM WHAT YOU ARE GRATEFUL FOR. AFFIRMATIONS- TELL YOURSELF AFFIRMATIONS ESPECIALLY BEFORE BED Resources I recommend to help you along your journey: Joe Dispenza - Books, youtube videos Wim Hoff - Breathing certified health nut troy Casey - breathing, chi gong, health David Deida - Especially 'Way of the Superior Man' Napoleon hill - Yes of course 'Think and Grow Rich' also an extremely profound book which will help with semen retention ( I'm about to read it again) 'Outwitting The Devil' Bob Proctor - Abundance meditation and all his work THE UGLY - THERE IS NO UGLY!!! If you haven't watched the movie THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY with Clint Eastwood I highly recommend... If your attention span can handle an actually good plotted old school movie. Also if you like westerns, another of Clint's movies "For a Few Dollars More' is one one of my favourites. These movies are manly as F***!!! good seed retention motivation CONCLUSION I could have made this post 10X longer but feel it is a good source of info for everyone along this journey. Please let me know what you think and if I get good feedback I would be glad to answer questions and write more about this journey we are going through. I may even start making vids here soon. GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY. Let's make this world a better place and bring back the POWERFUL Masculine energy we all have inside of us."
I used to be what you described above. These days, I reflect on my past, re-read journals 2017, 2018, and wonder to myself what went wrong. I've lost my motivation, which i i believe is got to do with dopamine system malfunction. Somehow my dopmaine is not releasing the way it used to during my past recovery. Somewhere down the line, i lost interest in life and reality. I abstain, but iam nowhere what i i used to be 2-3 years ago. Discipline seems to be the only thing that will get me through, get done what needs to get done.
Day 53 . A death silence swept the halls and I try to pass unnoticed under the mountain but the PMO forces are cunning and have arisen. Lets keep fighting until the end.
Well that's quite optimistic and inspiring message from your friend.So far I've done 38 days of SR and under SR i mean no PMO,no women,no wet dreams / nocturnal emissions.I thing some of those things are rather individual and not everyone experiences them,but the things I experiencing are:- Quite boundless physical energy which is constantly expanding (I mean 2-3 hours of workouts every day is a normal thing for me),-yes last week I noticed some natural deepening of voice ,- although I don't feel big mental clarity I become more calmly thinking in general in whatever i do, somehow worries and anxieties got choked and I really feel relieve at their departure so much for the benefits and as for difficulties they come when you fall asleep as nearly every night there are seductive,sexy dreams the only reason I stayed sound and dry is that I transferred my meditation developed awareness into my dreams and very often I am aware that I am in my sleep when seeing the dreams and if the become too disturbing I wake up to stop seeing them...and I started doing cold showers first thing in the morning maybe some 5 -6 days ago. And I read all of the books recommended by your brother apart from David Deida's because of the no women part in my challenge.Napoleon Hill was a Genius and all modern self improvement gurus are copycatting from what he said and wrote 100 years ago.Bob Proctor is his student and I think its a wise thing to study from the source and not from the agent first.Wim Hofs breathing method is good for running up the hill fast ,but if you do 4-5 miles run everyday you wont experience much of lightheadedness when doing it unless you go for 10-15 *40 sets.
Day 2, Last day of finals and rounding the cornered on research papers. Attended a virtual funeral for a distant friend which was nice to see his memory honored. Wishing you all the best!
Checking in warriors of the digital age Having had a long day today, I wanted to relax and watch some TV, so I went through the various movie channel indices to see what was on and checked them against commonsense media, to get an idea if there might be triggers. Out of the 8-10 movies that were on, everyone one of them scored high on sexual content in commonsense media. So I turned to watching some sports for a while and then read a book. While the TV was off I got to thinking how Saturday night TV fully reflects our hyper-sexualised culture. I thought how lonely it is to just turn off the tv when the majority of people are in their homes watching it and felt sad... but then a realisation slowly dawned on me... There is a group of people out there actually standing up and saying "no more". Brave, courageous, honourable people fighting to save human dignity, fighting to change the world the only way possible - by changing themselves, standing up and saying "NO MORE!". A group of people actually fighting an enemy hidden in plain sight, more utterly insidious, merciless and destructive than any experienced in the history of time (and this is no exaggeration). An enemy that is everywhere, in our cities, in the countryside, in our public transport, in our schools, in our homes, in our eyes, in our minds, in our souls. An enemy that seems so powerful so everywhere, all the time, that practically everyone just accepts and submits to it. But not this group of people... these people will go down in history as those who stood against the darkness, and in doing so became shining lights.The resilience of the orcs, the emergence of the uruk hais, the steadfast joy of the hobbits, the elves, the warriors, and on and on, a Fellowship growing in strength all the time, and we will prevail!!! I am so so grateful, thank you so much brothers and sisters - though I do not know you, you are people I am so proud of and so grateful to count as friends. And of course especial thank you and much gratitude for @RiseToGreatness for setting up this Fellowship No PMO - Day 24 (Day 3 of Week 4 (according to Scandinavian Bob: the last week of the lowest of the low dopamine)) Exercise - Not today as I did family duty stuff but did 1.5 hours yesterday so all good Reflections - see above Mindful Breathing - Yes throughout the day - Focus on breath - need to look up Wim Hoff as @PowerfulSRE posted Procrastination - Too busy Acting the idiot, boasting, blather - no not today, today I permitted myself to be a man Why am I doing this? - Here is what NoFap.com lists as the psychological impacts of P - so I am doing this to achieve the opposite of each of these Low self-esteem or confidence - Self Confidence Sense of shame - Use shame as an ally to help me remember why I never want to use P to harm my own dignity ever again Low mood or agitated mood - Grounded strength Lack of motivation - Joie de vivre Decreased libido - Reclaim the reins of my sexuality Disinterest in sex in favor of porn - for any intimate relationship in the future I will be interested in sex and absolutely not interested in porn Clouding of consciousness, or “brain fog” - to be able to fully depend on my own mind again, especially in work and especially in stressful situations Freedom Fight - Win the battle for your mind : Avoid worldly media - Take lustful thoughts captive (does this thought help me follow Christ & his Word?) - Do not allow neurotic negative self talk - Examine routine rationalisations under the cold light of day e.g. "everyone is doing it" (this Fellowship proves that rationalisation false immediately) Commitments for tomorrow - No PMO; Do not skip reflections or mindful breathing; connect to wholesome friends; do the domestic tasks; Have Faith; Use Fear & Shame as Allies; Connect to my vulnerability Feed the beneficial wolf!
Thanks @RiseToGreatness @PowerfulSRE very helpful post Could you elaborate on the big ego piece and what you do to rein this in And when increased attractiveness can be problematic e.g. women in other relationships, work colleagues, etc.. and so how do you manage this
