Almost relapsed last night, but I just turned off my mobile phone and went to bed. Also this morning the urges rises again, and I started searching but then I asked myself "Is it worth it?". I found myself getting calmer and closed everything. Went on to the panic key, and started reading some threads on nofap, and remembered how I am still clean from the beginning of this year. I was a porn addict since I was 14 years till now which is like 14 years of addiction. I know the road to recovery will be tough, and there will be some slips. But I believe, what not kills us, makes us stronger. Some will call what I saw a relapse, but I find it a win, to be almost 80% inside, and be able to pull myself out, that's a win for me. I want to fight back, and I am here to see how everyone is fighting, and to learn from mistakes. This was one of the longest posts I ever wrote here. I felt I needed to talk and say what happened to me. I will keep on fighting, and I hope everyone is having a better start of the day. Checking in day 011/500
Day 11 complete! One more week until I go back to college and ugh, I do not feel ready to go back to that sleep schedule. I know I'll be keeping myself busy, though, which means even fewer opportunities for PMO to creep back into my routine!
Hey brother you've done really well ! but you can improve if you could add study of rebooting process and healthy-moderate nutrition to your list!
Day 90 check, hullo Gandalf I'm probably going to switch to just no P because I reached my goal of 90days no PMO. Is this challenge only for no PMO or will it still count?
Brother urges bother you into searches only because you didn't learn by heart of what they and what harm they do inflict if you but allow them to. Because of that I recommend you to increase the amount of your rebooting studies until you are firmly set in the right knowledge.
This challenge is 500 days long so you are at the beginning of it yet and your goal of 90 days Just allowed you to experience power of the grey wizard which is nothing compared to the powers of the white wizard, by quiting challenge today you throw yourself into wanderings between orc and your current point for a long while ,without mentioning you consciously want to get back to MOing and keep damaging your health.!??Whats wrong with you?
Day 12 I'm starting to feel some urges but I have to be strong. Staying in bed and procrastinating will always lead to relapse. I'll get up, do some work and some exercise, and finish with a cold shower.
Hey , brothers I found a simple way to stay happy for a while. It's to crack a hearty joke in your mind. I was running in the morning and started imagining myself sharing cakes and tea to the homeless people when I said to them -'Be careful it's a Lembas bread and one small bite is able to fill a stomach of a grown man.' After that I couldn't stop smiling and laughing in my mind for another mile or so !
I'm not quitting, I don't see a reason to/benefits of continuing no MO . All the benefits that I'm feeling come from no porn and no MO has been mainly to challenge myself and to make no P easyer. The only direct effect from no MO for me at this point is wet dreams. It's not a rushed decision, after weighing the pro's and con's and looking up various sources of information I came to the conclusion that just no P is the best way for me personally to continue after completing 90 days no PMO.
Okay, it was definitly a help being in the challenge, alweays nice to have an extra motivator. Good luck to everyone!
You showed great strength to do this. 99% of people including myself would have fallen but you stopped.
Day 34. I have so my energy and have made so many changes to my life in the last 34 days. Looking forward to see what I can accomplish in the remaining days of my 90 day reset
Day 90 complete I've reached the Black Gate of Mordor. Power and wisdom runs through my veins, I'm a servant of the Secret Fire, Wielder of The Flame of Anor, a Grey Wizard.
Hello my brothers and sisters. I´m back Good to see the Fellowship alive and kicking and everybody on their way to destroy the PMO ring . Proud of you. Well, during these couple of weeks i read a book that a brother put it here, i can´t remember who was, but you know who you are, so thank you it´s Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Smoking. here´s the link to it: https://www.amazon.com/Allen-Carrs-Easy-Stop-Smoking/dp/0615482155 this book was eye opening for me (and i thought i knew it all ). this book not only shows a clear effective way to break easily from pmo but it also shows that we´re doing nofap for different reasons than we do pmo. most of us do nofap because of the detrimental effects of pmo, it´s a destructive behaviour, no doubt. but that by itself is not motivating enough in the long run, because deep down we think pmo is a pleasure and we´re doing a sacrifice of breaking free from it. we are, in a way, deprived. what this book shows very clearly is that the entire pmo behaviour as "pleasure" is a complete illusion, a lie. i won´t get into details, but please read the book. it´s really groundbreaking because once you see the reasons why you do pmo are not what you think, the entire "need" for pmo falls apart like a domino line. so yesterday, 10/1/2021, i did the last pmo session of my life and i will never do pmo again i still don´t defend the counting of days because that tends towards "an event" and may focus the attention of the rebooter on the number of days gone and ahead, instead of focusing in living life to it´s fullest now. so what i will do is mark on my agenda when i reach a rank or landmark in the journey of the ring, and when the day comes, i will post it here . all challengers are free to stop counting if they prefer, as long as they tell when they upgrade Good to be with you once more. I feel totally free from pmo but i´m gonna throw that ring into the fire even though. Like everybody here!!! . Onwards!!!!!!
