The Lord of the Rings Challenge

@RiseToGreatness leads the way, I'm just another guy checking in, but thank you.

 

Day 275.

 

day 2.

I feel like I’m dying… I just find myself open P sites all the time without even thinking about it… and then realizing what I’m doing and jumping to close it. I’ve never would have guess that my biggest goal in life would be to become an Uruk – Hai. I’ve reached day 5 a couple of times and that’s when I used to break all the time. But not this time!

 

Day 12! Getting closer and closer to Hobbiton and really excited for my journey to truly start.
Some really good posts here these past few days, especially around recognizing how P influences our expectations of real relationships. And I'm totally going to view psubs now as "greasing the slide that shoots you right back to a Mordor Orc camp". Great analogy

 

Day 20 trod on

 

Day 2.

A day of working and taking a walk. Match by match, day by day!

Congrats! And great point @OttarrTheVendelCrow about how porn destroys our relationships with women.

Sts. Benedict of Nursia and Michael archangel, intercede for us and protect this fellowship!

 

Thank you @RiseToGreatness !!!!!

 

Thank you @Ciceron !!!

 

I think it's day 79! I'm exhausted! Just gonna hit the hay! I hope you all have a great day!

 

Day 27

Quite a stressful day at work, meaning limited conversation with my girlfriend, meaning higher levels of stress and boredom - a recipe for disaster! I still managed to avoid sources of temptation (aside from a rather sexualised camera angle during a sit-com) and have survived another day with PMO urges digging its claws in.

While I’m thankful for my progress, I’m worrying about the journey from Rivendell onwards - my longest streak in 10 years (since the beginning of my addiction) is 30 days, and as soon as I pass this milestone I will be in uncharted territory.

I too have been facing similar obstacles in my life brothers; I kept hearing people say that PMO will harm your perception of women and ability to form intimate relationships, but I thought I was absolutely fine, and now I am realising how naive I was.

Like @aeburbt mentioned, now that I’ve started a new relationship (approaching 3 months), I find myself setting a sexual standard that no woman outside of a laptop screen is likely to attain! When I have these thoughts it upsets me as my girlfriend deserves far more than someone primarily thinking of their own gratification, but it then encourages me to continue this challenge and pursue a healthy, fulfilling, and intimate relationship with her! I will trust the process, avoiding P and P substitutes, and allow my brain to reboot so I can finally see the light!

 

That's the great truth and the most of the movies starting from certain years(maybe 50-60s, Merilin Monro times...) were incorporating more and more nudity and triggers in them as the means to keep and increase audience. In contrast previous generations movies were more about character qualities, voice and very emotionally expressive facial features of the actors. As your brain's reward system will become more recovered from nudity induced dopamine flooding you will have a good chance of enjoying old generations movies !

 

Day 13,

Productive day with a good bit of painting barn doors. Had a nice 6 mile run in the afternoon and on the homework warpath. Noting has been a good practice to bring me back to the moment. Have not been experiencing major urges and I feel as though that is largely do to having a partner now.

Thank you Fellowship for the support and this space!

 

There is the great illusion and a free will. I think that satanism is for those who prefer to exercise their free will and take the blue pill to stay in the great illusion forever...or at least to try hard.

 

Day 0 again
Feeling super frustrated...
Have been analysing my mistakes and have taken some preventive actions to avoid them in the future.

Trying again...

 

Day 9 competed!

 

Day 2 check in. Thanks @RiseToGreatness for the warm welcome!

@bob200 Stay strong brother! Don't discount being a Uruk-Hai. It might not be the most glamorous thing, but it's a pivotal step in our journey. Soon enough we'll be hobbits i'm sure!

 

Day 153. Checking in.

 

Day 192...going smooth...had morning wood after a long time.

 

I really do, man. Thanks very much!