Checking in on day 23. I've had some trying times this week, mostly because I've been home alone for hours on end. I also watched several episodes of Narcos, which had some scenes that led me to lust after these women. I hate that feeling that bubbles up inside of me when this happens. It's exciting, and I instantly feel the urge to scratch the itch and release even more dopamine into my brain. It's very hard to slam the valve shut at this point, especially if I linger on those thoughts for any amount of time. It led to a few close calls, but I have not turned to P like I usually would. I did MO while looking at photos of my wife. I guess that technically this could be a reason to reset my counter, but I am not considering that necessary for two reasons: I do not see pictures of my wife as P, and it certainly isn't something that I would be ashamed of other people to know about. Second, one of the main reasons that I'm doing this challenge is so that I will turn my eyes away from other women and towards my wife, who I am blessed to have. In a way, MO to pictures of my wife is a sign that this process is working...in the past, I wouldn't have considered this and would have instead searched the depths of the internet to get my fix. I honestly feel like this is sound logic, but there is a small part that wonders if I'm making excuses. I will strive not to do this again in the future so that I won't enter this gray area, but I don't feel that this has tainted my accomplishments thus far and I will keep moving forward. If you all disagree with me, let me know, as I'd like to be in good standing with this challenge. Be well, everyone!