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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Checking in on Day 73.
Day by day, month by month and you won't even notice how fast a year will past without No PM
Now the warrior
@RiseToGreatness please upgrade my rank
Good morning everyone!
Day 1 complete
Back to 0.
I was so close to break my previous record of 9 days. But in the last two days it was just two much. All I could think about was porn and I just felt it like a weight on my chest. And today I just felt like I was fighting all dam day. I left my house in the morning and stayed all day in an open work space. I meditated and still. I’ve spent the lest hour in the bathroom. Reading a dirty story and edging myself.
I’ve done if for something like 30 minutes while people tried to go to the bathroom and even that did not stopped me and all that time all I could think about was that I hate this so much and at the same time that this is the best feeling in the world.
I stopped my self in the end, and got up and walked away without orgasm, but it still feels l lost big time. I’ve got tears in my eyes right now and I just don’t know how to start over again.
I’m just so sad right now.
Day 71. I had very vivid wet dreams last night. It is frustrating that my brain likes to do this. I feel that it is impeding my reboot to some extent. Not to mention the lingering chaser effect that follows me for a couple of days afterwords. I can't loose sight of my goal or how far I have come now.
sorry about what happened bro. try not to indulge in sexual thoughts, fantasies are extremely dangerous and leads many times to relapses.
i recommend you do meditation to calm yourself on a regular basis, and that will help you being aware of your mind instead of dwelling in it. also create a triggers prevention plan and let it be active 24/7, not just when you´re aroused.
you were close to your previous record, that means you´re on the right path. Keep going my brother!!!
Checking in Fellowship
The following brother has upgraded and reached a place in Middle Earth. Congratulations!!
@I will break free - Warrior / Amon Hen
Let´s welcome our new member:
A wave of support to our brother in need @bob200 . Rise your head my brother, you´re not alone, we´re with you!
I hope all the Companion is going well and sound. Checking out, have a great day my friends!!!
I've been here before but lets do it again.
Day 1 Complete - A nasty orc stumbles into camp!
what is a triggers prevention plan ?
Day 1 of my new life..
Cold Showers my dude! Learn to embrace them!
also... A triggers prevention plan is to set up an actual plan that includes all the steps that you should do when you know the urges start hitting. Basically you study yourself and what makes those urges appear and set up a plan to do alternative things.
Glad to see you!
One time snuck in update (basically the actual last post lol)
I and the girl I mentioned are gonna try and start dating. Taking it slowly, making sure I remember my past mistakes so it works this time.
She is special in every way. Sounds like an angel, personality like no other I have ever met, quirks that only add to her soul like texture on a painting, ever-changing color for her long, soft hair, big brown eyes that turn the color of honey in the sun. . . everything about her is perfect.
Only her, though. No other girl did that.
Great things are ahead of me, I am en route to fulfilling medical work as a part of who I wish to become. I am still an individual with goals, I will not be dependant this time.
Good luck everyone! I will likely never be back.
A fair warning, this next bit might be triggering or TMI. Read if you're fine with that.
I ejaculated once since I left while on a consenting phone call with her, I assume you all can piece together what that means, but I will not be resetting my counter, as it is to ensure I stay away from porn. Going back to semen retention, though, and that is something I will stick with now that I got that experience out of my system.
Heh... 100 Days! The weight is light and I'm tying to be better than yesterday!
One Today at a time!
You Emperors shall soon arise!
Still going...day 25 complete
Day 27. doing my best starting this ash wednesday
Hey @OttarrTheVendelCrow , not sure if this helps or not, but when I have nocturnal emissions I remind myself that I have had an O and so can no longer tell myself I need an O, because I have had one. So when the chaser effects arrive, I use them to remind me that I have already had an O, so there is no need to desire to have more, because the endorphins have already been released into my system so the brain cannot trick me into believing I need it anymore. Then later on start dreaming of not following the fantasies, choosing freedom instead, and the frequency of the nocturnal emissions gets less and less.
Also I find diet has a huge effect, especially rich or sugary & tasty foods. If not diet, then simply eating late as the energy released by the food during sleep calls out for release. Whereas if it is released earlier in the day then less fuel for the fire during sleep. Again this is just my 2 cents...
Checking in at 91 days
This has been the longest time I have gone free from lust in my life. Yes it has come at me with urges, especially of late, but over 90 days it has been nowhere near the levels it has had throughout my life before now. The light shines brighter, the air smells fresher and the smiles stay longer. Yes there is frustration, the DeltaFosB highways are aching for a dopamine slide, but there is so much more, so much to lose now by harking their calls.
@RiseToGreatness "Mae govannen, Haldir!, YOU ARE MOST WELCOME!!!"
Great to see you back and so great to witness such resilience! Resilience we can all aspire to!
I humbly ask for your blessing to become a Grey Wizard!