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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
25 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area.
Wow, that's some awesome insight into yourself. I totally get it, too. Calling yourself on flirting indicates the increased self-awareness you are aquiring. Nice reflection.
Stay strong stay focused stay motivated
Day 15. Finally a Hobbit
I am ready for the journey ahead. Let’s get this started.
Day 18 - Hobbit
Day 6, officially carrying the white hand of sauron once again!
this is getting harder.
I don't even know what to say.
I just miss it.
this morning I've opened a porn site in my phone out of reflex.... while I was in public. it was just fucked up, I didn't even notice I was doing that. I've closed it right away, but still what the fuck was that.
I'm spending all day long outside my house, spending my time studying and working on an internship that may get me a job, trying to be as far away from my phone as possible, and still, it's like something itchy in the back of my head.
I'm still ok, but I just feel tired of trying to fight it
Checking in on Day 87.
Checking in day 84
Today I relapsed unfornately... It all started when I was watching youtube and then urges started to beat me and I went to porn and everything happened.
In spite of this... I´m extremely proud of myself because it was the first time that I reacht 31 days and now I know my value and what I am capable of. I´m coming back even more power, strenght and experience than before!
This time I won´t fail!
God bless all of you brothers and sisters!
Let´s start from the beginning!
Day 0 Check-in as a Orc!
Just like a Saiyan warrior bro, reflect, gather your strenghts, and rise again
Checking in Fellowship. Bording the Buckleberry Ferry . The forces of Mordor are right on my tail because fatigue and brain fog payed a visit today, but they won´t shake me. Continuining my voyage...
Let´s welcome our new members:
The following brothers have upgraded and reach places in Middle Earth. Congratulations!!!
@Cartographer @Ruhns9593 - Uruk-Hai
@the_wizard - Hobbit / Hobbiton (Good luck my brother. Godspeed!!! )
@Onan the Barbarian @Rubzi - Buckleberry Ferry / Shire
@LuckyMan - Weathertop / Eriador
For those brothers that are struggling here´s some words of confidence . Checking out brave Fellowship. Have a great day!!!
"Strength does not come from winning. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength." M. Gandhi
This is a grand realization, brother. I am honored to "fight" by your side!
Avoidance of triggers is absolutely essential in the road to recovery, however, there also needs to be a sense of "living in the present moment" to go right along with it. There are times I read through what brothers have shared and I can see myself in that "state" of avoidance and it just hard, so I sympathize. When we are in a state of "keeping ourselves busy" we are innately "calling up" the images of PMOing as something to stay away from. This is not optimal and I know from first hand experience (no pun intended).
Being in the "keeping ourselves busy" state is sort of like walking to the store, purchasing your favorite snack, taking it back to your home, setting it on the table, sitting down and starting to take a bite of it, and until that moment saying to yourself no I can't do this. Well at that point, your body is completely prepared to consume that substance. Everything is ready, your brain, your mind, your body, everything is ready, because the body knows.
So, we have to live as "non-users". You just don't use porn, it's not bad, it's not good, it is just something you don't use. We are just people that are living in this present moment in time. Porn is not with you everywhere. It isn't isn't holding on to you like you think it is.
Careful your words, do not utter things like "ooooh, I am getting stressed, I hope I don't relapse". You have just strengthened the connection between "being stressed" and "relapsing".
"I am a non-user, and I am happy!"
100% agree. As long as porn is something you feel you're denying yourself, it's only a matter of time.
Day 85. Chaser effect is still present but slowly diminishing. I am pushing through. The urges have been some of the strongest during my journey so far. I need to busy my mind to quell the urges.
@Slider8 The main reason why I have relapsed so many times was because that i didnt do the things that i planned to do every day. I became a lazy person. Now, i keep myself busy every day. When the urges start to hit me, i remember to be disciplined and move on. If i cant deal with the urges, cold shower comes into the play. So far so good
Early morning run and active day at work. Now onto the homework grind
Forward unto new horizons brave Fellowship