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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Day 126. Feeling much better today. The chaser effect has subsided substantially. Looking ahead.
Day 16 check-in (Attempt 4) - Left hobbiton, heading for Bree.
Day 2 complete!
Took a hot shower today just because it helps with headaches and I was already pretty cold from sitting in my room studying. There's only one thermostat control for the whole apartment and my roommates usually keep it pretty low. Anyway, I'll go running tomorrow, so that'll be my exercise in willpower. I've been building up to expand my usual route, so I hope to take a shot at adding a couple more miles.
No urges to speak of. Still too soon after my last relapse for that. For now I'm still just marching in Sauron's army.
Checking in on Day 129.
9 days no pmo. 3 days no Facebook. Life is good. A few troubles with doubts last night. I handled it differently. I can do this. Not grouchy today. Ready to take on the world. My 14 day shift is over half over. Hopefully I can keep this streak going through my days off. I fell a day or two before my last days off. I was looking forward to the benefits with some free time. Maybe this time. Holding up well so far. No temptations to speak of. They will come and I am ready.
Checking in Fellowship
Same shit as yesterday, brain fog stills clouds me after lunch. i´m doing the austin goh tecnique twice a day so i hope it helps me in these dark times. i feel so retarded that i can´t even have a straight talk with someone. i just nod my head but most of the time i don´t hear what is said.
The following members are going well on their paths. Congratulations!!!
@Mathman1994 - Uruk-Hai
@Thomas3 - Bree / Eriador
@Johnthesavage - Gorgoroth / Mordor (i stand corrected of yesterday bro, sorry. this is where you are now )
Checking out my brothers and sisters . Have a good day!!
Day 230. Checking in.
On the other side of the struggle lays a serenity you cannot yet see. Foolishly or not, I powered my way through the darkness to be met with a sense of resolve.
"Fishing becomes P, P becomes M , M becomes relapse"
273 days the stairs of Cirith Ungol
348 days no PMO, semen retention
Checking in. Tomorrow I am a Wizard!
Checking in on Day 21.
Made it to 3 weeks! But at the same time my urges are becoming more difficult to ignore. I know I have to do more things to distract myself but I'm being crammed with a ton of schoolwork and it sucks. I'm still gonna do as much as I can to keep my mind from wandering. Hopefully I'll survive this storm and now aiming for day 28.
You are doing great , so close to be a elf, this is the time to demostrate to the mind who rules!
Don't worry about the strong urges is normal, when you pass next this days, they will become weak and will not molest you more.
Day 352. Into Mordor we go.
Day 6 trod on
Guess who fell off the wagon again! I've been having some particularly down days recently, and have been feeling incredibly tired a lot of the time - while this hasn't been a direct result of PMO, it's certainly been a contributing factor.
That being said, I was finally able to see my girlfriend on Monday (first time in 4 months), and she brought me out of my 'pit' and I feel so much better! I am excited to continue on my reboot journey, and I hope to stick to it this time.
Day 7. I am a week clean for the first time in nearly a month. I feel great. My goals are being checked off one piece at a time and I am more than overjoyed. Now I know that I will have low days, so I have to stay wary of those days as I am more likely to use porn on those days. Additionally, if I do not remain prepared for life, then I will be triggered and relapse. I had a couple successes with fighting the urge yesterday. To preface, I have not been using YouTube for the last half a week (until yesterday) as it has a lot of triggering thumbnails for the "clickbait" and sometimes it can lead to me going down a rabbit hole of relapse. Since I have not been on YouTube, my days have been so much more productive as I am not wasting 4-7 hours of my day binging one video after another. Anyway, when I do use YouTube, I put a timer on it, so I am automatically kicked off after 60-70 minutes. With that said, I was on YouTube yesterday, and there were some triggering thumbnails, so I said "not interested" next to the video to remove it from my queue, and I did not come even close to relapse. I watched YouTube for an hour today watching Studio C medical sketches, but for the remainder of the week, I hope to not use YouTube at all.