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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Day 352. Into Mordor we go.
Day 6 trod on
Guess who fell off the wagon again! I've been having some particularly down days recently, and have been feeling incredibly tired a lot of the time - while this hasn't been a direct result of PMO, it's certainly been a contributing factor.
That being said, I was finally able to see my girlfriend on Monday (first time in 4 months), and she brought me out of my 'pit' and I feel so much better! I am excited to continue on my reboot journey, and I hope to stick to it this time.
Day 7. I am a week clean for the first time in nearly a month. I feel great. My goals are being checked off one piece at a time and I am more than overjoyed. Now I know that I will have low days, so I have to stay wary of those days as I am more likely to use porn on those days. Additionally, if I do not remain prepared for life, then I will be triggered and relapse. I had a couple successes with fighting the urge yesterday. To preface, I have not been using YouTube for the last half a week (until yesterday) as it has a lot of triggering thumbnails for the "clickbait" and sometimes it can lead to me going down a rabbit hole of relapse. Since I have not been on YouTube, my days have been so much more productive as I am not wasting 4-7 hours of my day binging one video after another. Anyway, when I do use YouTube, I put a timer on it, so I am automatically kicked off after 60-70 minutes. With that said, I was on YouTube yesterday, and there were some triggering thumbnails, so I said "not interested" next to the video to remove it from my queue, and I did not come even close to relapse. I watched YouTube for an hour today watching Studio C medical sketches, but for the remainder of the week, I hope to not use YouTube at all.
Maybe it is just me bouncing back from the recent reset, but I am moodier than a shipwrecked Tom Hanks who lost his volleyball.
Best to you Fellowship!
Fantastic, brother! I would urge you to focus, not on bigger urges (sure they do get bigger at times), but on developing yourself as a wholesome individual. There is plenty of ways to do this.
I am spending the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl Truly PMO forces are lurking in the area because the urges are strong today!
Another future elf on the sight
Brain fog is rather bad today. I've had much trouble focusing. A lot of trouble with distraction. I am trying to dig deep. I am someone who can overcome adversity. Today I am trying to remember that and live it out.
today I have: cold showered, prayed, meditated, eaten healthy, taken walks. I got up at 6:30, which may be part of my brain fog since I went to bed well after 11pm. But, the silver lining there is that I should be ready to hit the sack at a decent time tonight!
Till next time, Fellows.
Day 127. Feeling strong today as well. I have been sleeping really well and feel settled into my life. Keeping my eyes forward and my feet moving!
Amazing @Johnthesavage keep it up!
Keep it up @ksie!
Day 17 check-in (Attempt 4) - Still heading for Bree.
Day 1 finished. Had 2 instances where I almost gave into the urges. Didn't fish though. Soon I'll be past this chaser!
Day 3 complete!
The day started off with a beautiful run. Exhausting and lengthy, but well worth it. From there it's been a whole lot of ups and downs. I don't want to go into details, but it's been an emotionally challenging day. The urges tried to take advantage of that. I didn't let them. PMO would have been the negative icing on the negative cake. There's no place in my life for those consequences.
Checking in on Day 130.