The Lord of the Rings Challenge

300 days dwarf king
375 days no PMO, semen retention

 

0 days. Overly tired. Half a day left before days off. Overly tired. Some rest will do me good.

 

Day 3 check in

 

Thanks @RiseToGreatness - daily is tricky but I'll do my best. The Values tip is spot on: dignity and self-respect are the values that have been stripped away now, so time to get them back. Thank you.

 

Thanks @eagle rising
My own view is that it is how disconnected we are from our masculinity that drives us towards this need for external validation. But you are right, connecting to who I am, my being, will bring me closer to self-respect, which helps me connect to, and brings me closer to respecting, others.

 

Checking in Friends - chase urges are horrible and as I am not used to them they are screaming at me

No P Day 173
No M Day 2
No O Day 2

Cold Shower - Yes
Exercise - Yes
Reflections - Yes - chase is tougher than it has been in months clearly
Procrastination - No
Vanity - Yes - Caught myself trying to impress a female colleague, as the chase effect is strong this time, but have nipped it in the bud
Excuses - "Helps me feel better" - to which I reply - they are only fing pixels, Get Real!
Meditate - Not Yet
Sleep Pattern - Healthy Early to Bed & Early to Rise
Mindful Eating - Yes
Personal values - Dignity, Human, a Man
Freedom Fight - Not Yet
No need to even think of Gollum right now, because I am further down than him

 

Day 257, checking in.

 

Daily checking. Had a P dream tonight and temptations seeing an actress on TV, time to be careful.

Huge congrats!

St. Agnes of Rome, pray for us!

 

Checking in. All good here, life is busy but full. Be well everyone

 

day 52

 

Day 12 (I think, don't know if counter has changed yet)

So, still busy today. Still feeling better, thank God. Keeping very busy today, have done some writing and some reading. I've also begun my cycle of prayers for the day and will try to meditate this afternoon. I will workout tonight.

No cold shower because my skin is getting too dry and I'm going to shower tonight after lifting anyway. Go ahead and make fun . Barbarians don't need to bathe everyday.

 

Interesting day with some realizations. I guess I managed to sprain something in the wrist while doing pullups and while reading posts about vitamins and supplements I realized that i have taken non for the last 5 days. Maybe its one of the factors in these sprains during workouts? Had some meditation in the morning, another attempt to do important stuff, 12 miles run was bloody unexpectedly exhausting despite isotonic drink during the run. Feel lightly depressed because of this small annoying injuries which stop you from good workouts.
Yeah its all pixels on the screen and reaction follows only from self identity.

 

Day 22! Busy day and no urges as a lot of going here, there and back again was done! Stay strong brothers, today you are stronger than yesterday

 

Day 1, I will not stop trying no matter how many times I end up failing

 

Checking in on day 22

 

Checking in Day 25

 

Checking in for day 1!

Had a great day today (I think it was due to both the rush of excitement/will to improve that coming back to this website gives me and also the realization that i really need to be as productive as possible for the coming exam season) - I woke up at 6h50 PM (I usually wake up between 9h00 and 11h0) and was able to get so much done before lunch that I actually suprised myself.
I am definetily going to be changing my bed-time so i can start waking up this early everyday.

Only had a few PMO related thoughts yesterday before falling asleep but they were quite managable.

Looking forward to tomorrow!

 

I relapsed again. I had not been working my Action Plan or exercising like I meant to. Now it's day zero again after about a three week streak. At least I went that long; that's about the longest I have gone so far since joining NoFap. But alas, back to Orc.