The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.

Should the Thread Title be extended?

Poll closed Jun 21, 2020.
  1. No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

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  2. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

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  3. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

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  4. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

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  5. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    6 vote(s)
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  1. Mathman1994

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    Day 13.5 no P
    Day 8.5 no MO

    I had several relapse dreams last night. Relapse in the sense that I looked at P and edged. Glad it was just a dream when I woke up. Two weeks free from porn and porn-subs tonight and 9 days hard mode. I was looking something up on YouTube last night and a potentially triggering video popped up (just some anime stuff, nothing particularly bad). Anyway, I did not click into the video, found what I was looking for, and then closed out of YouTube without watching the video. It feels really good to not be triggered by the things that used to trigger me, though I am still being very careful when I see things that peek my interest sexually.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  2. Slider8

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    This way you will find out if it is really pointless....and a suggestion on life improving-attitude of gratitude.:)
     
  3. Slider8

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    Such a long and good post ;)! The tell-tell sign of a mental energy on a rise, but please consider that the 1st week is hard and those who struggle might not have enough of the attention span to go through the entirety of your thought. Just a suggestion-if you could make it shorter by splitting it into say three parts it would be much easier to get it across for those who struggle.:)
    And I remember myself thinking exactly the same before going down as well as remembered the St.Peter saying ready to die for Jesus only to betray Him trice later. This attitude can relax you into thinking you are safe. Keep you vigilance alive and kicking for as long as you live. This way you might succeed!:)
     
  4. ListenPaul

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    Day 32 monk mode.

    It was a good Sunday. I did some work, had some rest and gardened in the evening. Also, baked home pizza pie.

    Being outside is wonderful these days. Summer is coming to it's culmination and it's easy to feel that.

    Rule number 1. Of course, no pornography, no masturbation, no orgasm. Check.
    Rule number 2. No searching for sexually stimulating material, guarding my look in the street, on TV, on internet, etc. Check.
    Rule number 3. Daily prayer. Check.
    Rule number 4. Following my day schedule. This includes going to sleep and waking up on time, starting and finishing work on time. Mostly check.
    Rule number 5. At least one hour a day of activities not related to work, this site or empty internet browsing. Check. Gardening.
    Rule number 6. Daily journaling. Here or personally. Check.
    Rule number 7. Memory practise. I will relate it to my studies, so that I would save time. Not check. Day off.

    It is a reset, when any of first three rules is breached. I should follow others as much as possible.
     
  5. MyGodandMyAll27

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    Day 6. A lot of urges but staying strong I know for me the first two weeks are too hard so i cannot be so confident so I’m doing my best and looking forward thinking in a life free from the ring.
     
  6. Anew2019

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    1 day. Been a few days since I have been on here. Been on days off. Still on days off. Supposed to go back Wednesday but we will see. My car got stolen today. I a, choosing to trust God with this and am doing my best to forgive whoever did it. It will all work out. I decided a couple days ago to start praying the full rosary every day. That’s 4 of them. Totally worth it. The graces I will receive from that is worth far more than anything else I can do with my time. Graces for myself and others. I have been researching. Lots of people found so many more graces when they started praying all four. Makes me wonder if this whole situation of my car getting stolen is not a huge grace somehow. My golf clubs were in it. I had been wondering if I had been neglecting my talent of music because of golfing. Been spending too much money on golfing. I need to be saving money for music school. Maybe I will get my car back and my clubs will be gone. That is probably why they stole it. If I do get them back. I will probably buy some new ones if I have to. I think I will split my evening into golf stuff one evening and music stuff the next. Maybe with more prayer I will decide to just stick with music. Anyways.

    Prayer.
    4 rosaries last 2 days.

    abstinence.
    Have not been fasting.

    Rest.
    Listening to classical and sacred music. Slept for 13 hours last night. Guess I was tired.

    exercise.
    None to speak of.

    nutrition.
    not so good.

    temptations.
    None the last day and a half.

    I am hoping that praying the 4 rosaries a day will help get me to place with work where I am happy. I do not like my work. I need to work 14 days straight before I get time off. I need to pay off debt though before I can go to school. I dunno. Maybe this situation of my car being stolen will lead to that.
     
    Last edited: Jun 6, 2021
  7. Baby Yoda

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    The chaser effect got me good today and I fell twice today. I am not going to lie to you guys, it is hard to stay positive after a fall to p like this.

    I just find that I am so confused and frustrated with myself right now. In my previous streak of 55 days, everything just felt so easy and effortless. I was motivated and urges almost seemed like nothing to me. Now its gotten all so difficult again all of a sudden and im so frustrated with that. Shouldn't it be a little easier now? Why does it feel so much harder to quit all of a sudden?

    Ugh.
     
  8. Searcher123

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    Night of day 8

    huge temptations, Logan Paul and floyd fight sucked
     
  9. Bob&cat

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    Day 11 I know I can't do it on my own, because I have tried severally by myself and failed, so I prayed today for help... Even though I relapsed, I have gotten back on track with Jesus christ on my side. AMEN
     
  10. EpsilonDelta

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    Good questions. I guess that sometimes it just feels easy, and sometimes it just feels really hard, even if you have many days under the belt. I hope you'll find ways to deal with the hard days for your new streak.
     
  11. EpsilonDelta

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    6 days. Played football (or soccer, for my American friends out there) with my friends instead of running. Did the push-ups + sit-ups as well, and I woke up strong today for I have now become a Uruk-hai.
     
  12. Bob&cat

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    Brother I understand exactly how you feel, I have been there.... This what you are going to do, when you do fall don't be ashamed or feel guilty... Believe God loves you and because he does... Don't go out into any kind of guilt trip,.... ITS A BIG TRAP OF THE DEVIL!!! Stay happy with your self... Workout, stay happy and positive please
     
  13. crazyhorse11

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    Checking in day 5 - Uruk-Hai
    Started to fish on Saturday, stopped myself, continued working, started to fish again a bit longer this time, stopped myself again, put on a documentary about a football manager, and snapped out of the state of mind I was in and saw clearly how weak, dishonest, poisonous and snakelike Fishing is. I have not Fished since and I am committed to not Fish again.

    Now that I am over the chase period and am an Uruk-Hai, I at least have some strength to do the crash analysis of my last relapse below:

    1. Describe the last relapse you experienced...describe the crash site in vivid detail(when, where, triggers, nature of acting out, length of time).

    I had crashed with Fishing & MO in May after a 5 month streak of avoiding all triggering content, and had reached 3 weeks after that crash when the dopamine and testosterone, etc.... came back with a vengeance. Was having obsessive thoughts about a couple of old friends which lead to fishing for a time. Therapy sessions had ended and I was feeling a bit overwhelmed, and so got more obsessive until the fishing eventually lead to P.

    2. What did the start of the downward spiral look and feel like?
    this relapse had its beginnings in the end of the 5 month streak in April
    Chase effects - big change in my therapy cadence - fear - increased interactions with couple of old friends reminiscing about old times etc...


    a. List the last three weeks of your Faster Scale results. What was the lowest level you reached each week prior to relapse?

    very lonely craving for intimate connection

    b. In detail, describe the Double Binds you were struggling with during those three weeks.

    desire to be with people due to loneliness, but the negative influence these encounters were having

    c. Why do you think you never resolved those Double Binds so you could get off the Faster Scale and return to Restoration?

    I was afraid of avoiding those people, as I would have to face and connect with myself alone

    I convinced myself that being alone was worse than being with people with triggers


    3. What accelerated the downward plunge?

    What is triggering these urges was the chase period of the Orc state, which I feel has passed now, and interactions with a group of friends who speak in innuendo a lot. I am committed now to directing conversation away from innuendo, as cutting off friends just seems to increase loneliness which leads to worse urges for now.

    a. What were your Commitments to Change during those three weeks?

    I do feel the commitments were strong, but I left windows open to the possibility intimate connections with others

    b. Why did you give up on the Commitment to Change that could have pulled you out of the downward spiral?

    Same as above, I did not cut out the source of the triggers

    d. Why didn’t you call a group member for help when you were headed into the ground?

    I posted here but the discussion was more a debate on counters, than what was going on internally

    e. What were the triggers that set you up?

    Innuendo talk and obsessive thoughts

    f. What boundaries did you ignore or willfully violate?

    talking openly with friends about sexual frustration

    4. What lessons did you learn from this relapse?

    Regain self respect and dignity
    Stop fantasising about intimate connections with old friends
    Say NO when a Fishing temptation arises (thanks @Mathman1994 for your posts on stopping temptation at its source - very helpful)


    5. If you experience multiple relapses what is the common pattern in your relapses?

    I've had 2 in the last month and the pattern is
    Feel lonely, bored, trapped
    Allow thoughts of intimacy with old friends
    Fish on possibilities
    Move through progressive Fishing until reaching P images
    Move from P images to P videos


    6. What new guidelines do you need to put into place with respect to: Sleep, Exercise, Media usage, Your tendency to isolate, Others

    Early to bed early to rise
    Intense training plan for the next 6 weeks
    No Media unless vetted by commonsense media first (this is essential for next 90 days at a min)
    Seek to have dignified conversations with friends and steer away from innuendo (change the subject, etc...)


    7. What is your plan for the next time you find yourself in a similar pattern of relapse?

    If bored, stuck, under pressure - build in rewards to the tasks
    Stay on top of tasks (using Getting Things Done) so there is less pressure
    If thoughts arise - STOP them in their tracks redirect the thoughts or just stop and watch something uplifting to break
    If I get caught out with thoughts, and temptations to Fish arise STOP them at the source and again do something to engage - I think at this stage, stepping away from the device and even going outside is the key
    If Fishing happens, stop it and post here for full accountability with plan to recover by reviewing the crash plan and renewing decisions to change and stop lust forever
     
  14. Ready_to_Stop

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    Day 105 no PMO. Good day overall. Got
    outside for a bit to enjoy the weather and watched a nice family show with the kids. Today I’m taking my oldest to sleep away camp. It will be a tough few days without my little sidekick.
     
  15. Slider8

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    Who knows brother maybe it's for the best ?
    Try to see it from a different point of view:
    For example: You were supposed to die in that car in some car accident down the time line but God acted through those people and saved you. Would you more like to be with your car and dead or live and kicking but without it? Would this help you to forgive them?
    Hope this will help you to feel better ! :)
     
    Last edited: Jun 7, 2021
  16. Slider8

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    Maybe its because you are not learning your lesson from falls?
    Try to write a detailed accountability here on the circumstances that led to relapses, what were the triggers, when did you feel that you given up and fallen before the fall. Have a look at the way @crazyhorse11 wrote his accoutability to have an idea. If you keep these in secret-private, to yourself they gonna stay with you and you are bound to keep repeating them....well that's how I see it.
    Hope it will help you to straighten yourself up and rise.:)
     
    Last edited: Jun 7, 2021
  17. OttarrTheVendelCrow

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    Day 181 no PMO! I have completed two full 90 day resets at this point. My first 90 days was stronger than the second but I still feel like I made progress in the second. I had some fantasizing in the second 90 days but other than that I managed to stay clean. I am starting to wonder if the temptations and cravings ever go away. Over the last month or two I have had some cravings to watch porn. I have found that I am much stronger now and am able to let the cravings pass. I am pushing ahead!
     
  18. Slider8

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    There is place for everything and you supposed to feel ashamed and guilty it's a natural state after committing a crime, directly against yourself and indirectly against those you come into contact with. Before you can leave shame and guilt behind there is an important step which many are omitting and thinking it's OK. No, it is NOT. This step is to repent, to feel remorseful for what you did , make a firm commitment to never do it again and ask God for forgiveness, ask yourself for forgiveness ask those who were affected by it for forgiveness. Only then can you leave shame and guilt behind, and start building a new life from THAT moment on.
    How would you feel if your friend asked you for money or gift and promised to pay you back later but instead didn't pay you back when promised , used those money for drugs and later come to you to ask for more money thinking that you have forgotten, forgiven and trust him again without any repentance and apology for his actions. Would you trust him again?
    Psalm 51
    15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.

    16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.

    17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
     
  19. Slider8

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    It's a life-long fight brother where lust is only waiting for you to relax your vigilance to attack and finish you off.
    Stay on your guard no matter how many days you have.
     

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