The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.

Should the Thread Title be extended?

Poll closed Jun 21, 2020.
  1. No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    18 vote(s)
    54.5%
  2. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    15 vote(s)
    45.5%
  3. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    0 vote(s)
    0.0%
  4. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    5 vote(s)
    15.2%
  5. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    6 vote(s)
    18.2%
Multiple votes are allowed.
  1. Searcher123

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  2. til_im_free

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    Brothers, I've failed. Relapsed three times in a row last night. Both P and M.

    I feel ashemed that I couldn't see it coming, since I've been having strong urges in the last days but did nothing to compensate them, like meditating. Insted, I watched a ton of youtube videos, ate poorly, didn't exercise and slept very badly. I coudn't expect something diferent from a relapse with this behaviour. Though I feel like crap inside, I'm also a little (very little) hopeful, for my last streak showed me that I can get much further than I thought I was able to. I won't give this up, I'll be set free from this toxic behaviour of mine. Pray for me brothers.
    PS.: I reseted my counter, but it seems like it's going to take a while to update it, don't worry, I didn't forget it.
     
  3. Toni7

    Toni7 Fapstronaut

    Day 9 for me.
    But I feel broken.. my little angel passed away today :emoji_disappointed:

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    Rest now well. I hope I can see you in haven. :emoji_heart:
     
  4. Thomas3

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  5. Day 1. Pretty bad relapse yesterday. Just gave up. No more turning back. Here we go.
     
  6. EpsilonDelta

    EpsilonDelta Fapstronaut

    R.I.P. :emoji_cry:
     
  7. Toni7

    Toni7 Fapstronaut

    Thank you :(
     
  8. crazyhorse11

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    Checking in friends
    Thought about fishing - put in a search term - was about to move to images but stopped myself; remembered what @OttarrTheVendelCrow said about studying the effects of porn again and watched the TedX video above and it has put me right again! This will be a daily exercise from now on
     
  9. FellowCompanion

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  10. modern milarepa

    modern milarepa Fapstronaut

    Damn sad to hear that my friend
     
  11. modern milarepa

    modern milarepa Fapstronaut

    R. I. P
     
  12. Revanthegrey

    Revanthegrey Fapstronaut

    I liked it , on the personal i love this characters , they are not living or dead.
    Giiiaaaaa!(screams)
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    Last edited: Jun 10, 2021
  13. Revanthegrey

    Revanthegrey Fapstronaut

    R.I.P
     
  14. FellowCompanion

    FellowCompanion Fapstronaut

    R.I.P
    :emoji_dove:
     
  15. Slider8

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  16. Slider8

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    You gonna be alright ! After doing the right thing and accounting-analyzing your fall you are on the way up that's for sure! Yeah it looks like it was a lack of discipline to do the not so easy tasks that you punished yourself for. Start a new and do something good, even one thing, that will rise your self esteem and pull you out of feeling low. :)
     
  17. Mathman1994

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    Day 17 no P
    Day 12 no MO

    I had a close call last night where I got triggered by a reoccurring thought and I started to search. Not explicitly for P or P-subs, though that was a thought on my mind. I saw a bunch of distracting things, nothing sexual or triggering, but the last thing I saw for about five seconds was NSFW drawings and I was overcome with this feeling of nausea. It was not that explicit, but the realization that I was even searching for things to distract my overwhelmed brain (I had had a long day, especially with waking up late and then getting things figured out for work), and I stopped. I was trembling as I quickly closed the app, and I sat there shook. I had promised myself no peeking or fishing, and I did. Not for long, but I did. And I wanted to throw up in disgust. I just sat there wanting to cry, wanting to pull up actual P and wanting to PMO/MO. However, I did not. I just sat there, my heart racing, my eyes watering, my breath short and quick. But then my mom who was in the living room with my family called to me and said I should dance with her. So I did, and I put on AC/DC and rocked out until I was out of breath. Then my sister put on a comedy game show from Britain and we laughed for two hours and I went to bed at 11pm. Got up today just before 8am for my class and then I still feeling ill I took an nap from 10AM-12PM. Then I went out with my mom to get a gift for my dad for Father's Day (a massage gift certificate), and then picked up my prescriptions from the pharmacy. I took an ice cold shower when I got back and now I am eating a late lunch at 2:30PM.

    So what did I learn from last night?
    Well, I realized that I am an emotional PMO/MO user, that when I have a really rough day, I just need to close my laptop and walk away for the day, no devices, and just hang out with my family. It was a wake-up call because I thought I would be able to stop myself from fishing, but I was not completely aware of what I was doing until I came across the crude drawings. It also made me realize that my zero-tolerance for fishing and peeking has to be slightly adjusted, because I stopped in the moment that would have been my breaking point in the past. That is a success. I stopped the moment the drawings appeared instead of looking for actually stimulating material. With that said, it is my future goal to stop before I even start searching whether that be in a conscientious fishing or searching for distractions. As I said above, I was not explicitly search for P or P-subs, but I was not not doing that either. I was just trying to get this reoccurring thought out of my head, and instead of deciding to reach out to an accountability partner about my stress, I made the conscious decision to go online. So whether I was intentionally looking for P/P-subs or not does not matter. I was still trying to use media to reduce my stress, and that is something I do not want to do.

    In a way, I am proud of myself for stopping, but I am also upset because I cannot say for certain that had I not gone and danced with my mom that I would not have relapsed, and that makes me sick. I honestly just want to cry and cry and cry. I did not relapse, but I feel like I would have if things played out slightly differently and it reminds me that I am not free yet. I might be going on half a month hard mode, but it is still so easy to fall. I was not getting complacent per se, I was just broken down from the day and P/P-subs, and non-sexual, but just as stimulating, media have traditionally been my go to for stress relief. No stress relief here though. I still feel wound up, and I am need to do something to deal with the stress because if I do not, I will relapse, and it will be bad.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  18. Cartographer

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    Day 22,

    Fewer urges today but still adjusting back to life with a computer!


    I am a fan of the new rank! Gotta get past that chaser feeling where the Ring keeps drawing you back in!

    All my best to you Fellowship!
     
  19. Slider8

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    You've done well ! Such a breakthrough ! And your accountability is very good ! Some of the best ways to deal with stress are to: meditate, exercise in moderation, have a good healthy diet and religiously follow a good sleep schedule to get your 7-8 hours of quality sleep each night.
    Hope this will help you to deal with your stress.:)
     
  20. Slider8

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    and another day ...Had some strong urges (not physical but some dirty pictures started coming to mind so I had to stop my meditation about 45 minutes mark ),cold shower didn't seem cold enough today ;), few good walks and overall productive day !:)
     

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