Friday check in Today so far I've prayed, taken a cold shower, eaten healthy, gone on a walk, done some writing. Still ahead: meditation, some reading. Feeling kind of tired, but my spirits are good. I'm better than where I was on Monday.
another day-short meditation(15 minutes),cold shower, barbells-dumbells workout, got little kettlebell and done some exercises with it, few walks and some reading from the internet ...and no caffeine day 2 plus I noticed myself mostly on vegetarian diet lately.
Good night, brothers! One week and I'm back on track! Feeling good, spent some time in the countryside and thats renewing. Started to learn new things on the guitar. Have you ever heard of milongas? It's a musical genre of the region of Uruguay, Argentina and south of Brazil, were I live. It's rich in harmony and rithms. Felling also kinda weird, since I'm completing one week and the urges are much weaker than the expected.
Day 3 complete! Someone else mentioned that temptation is everywhere, and I'll be darned if that ain't the truth. The past couple days I've noticed the name of a certain pornstar cropping up in the news. She's doing good work, speaking out against the evils of the porn industry and trying to turn her life around. Huge respect for that, which makes it all the more shameful that even seeing the name brought on some urges. Remember that we're not just helping ourselves by doing NoFap. The less porn there is in the world, the better. St. Gianna Molla, pray for us!
18 days. It's 29 degrees Celsius (or 84 degrees Fahrenheit) where I live, which is extremely hot for us. I still decided to go for a run in the sun and do som push-ups which made me exhausted the whole afternoon. It seems I was too tired to get urges after that session, so it's all good here. Also watched the European football championship with friends, socialising helps as well sometimes. I wish you all a good P-free weekend.
Day 117 no PMO. I’m not getting a lot of attention from my family for Father’s Day which has lead to me feeling bad for myself in the past and then PMO. So far I feel I will make it through. CALL YOUR DAD!!! He might need you.
@Redemptionisrequired Hey! Thanks for the advice. It is a lot, but that might have been because it wasn't straight porn, but youtube stuff. It felt like I needed more to make up for it or something haha. Terrible. I laugh because it's just all so wrong! This whole addiction thing is just a parasite on the mind. Anyway! Yes, I have been evaluating my strategies and honestly, I got some advice from another forum that talked about acceptance. That I got to just accept the pain and know it comes with the territory of rebooting. This actually had a deep impact on me. As I feel that I have all the strategies in place (to the best of my ability with my situation at least) I now just have to accept the pain. I read your update and you talked about how the suffering is worth it. That's the outlook I'm wanting.
Alright. I didn't want to write this. I'm actually embarrassed to tell you all. People I don't even know. But I relapsed again last night. Just once. Which is better than the two times the day before and the 4 times the day before that. but still. It's all so unnecessary. However! I shan't give up! I've learned a lot! And in danger of repeating myself, I've learned I got to accept the pain. The lies I've been telling myself have all been about getting the pain to stop in order to be productive. I'm in school right now so being productive is very important to me. Still, I can't run away from the pain. I just got to somehow accept it, embrace it, and then hopefully that will allow me to move past it. Having to study with urges is the worst thing ever. But if I can learn to do it. I will be so much stronger for it. Thanks, everyone! P.S. I'm trying to update the counter, and I hope it goes through, but don't mind the counter till then.
Be careful bro with running at hot temperatures especially without good hydration. I did that few weeks ago and was feeling some weird pains in the legs for two weeks. I wouldn't go for long distance in that temperature unless there is a cooler air in the early morning.
Mine has passed away 6 years ago, can just pray for him. Well you probably gonna get it with interest on your birthday !
You are mixing suffering with inconvenience/the state of being uncomfortable. You could say like this or you can say that it is a deeply entrenched harmful habit. The later perspective gives you something to work on. How do you get rid of long term harmful habit?
