That´s a common misconception bro. external circunstances doesn´t carry us, they may give a help yes, but true inspiration comes from within. don´t wait until "things start to happen", you´ll wait forever. Find your "summer" within, and manifest it. Go bro! We believe in you.
Checking in Fellowship Well, in a turn of events i decided to give another go at semen retention. i really want to make that goal. But i will try the standard 90 days, instead of 100 days. Plus, if i´m going to count, i might as well reactivate the counter So i´m on this journey again with you all my brothers and sisters . Have a good day . This is for us. One day it will be true.
Day 39 monk mode. This is yesterday's report. I wasn't very talkative. Spoiler: Monk mode rules Rule number 1. Of course, no pornography, no masturbation, no orgasm. Check. Rule number 2. No searching for sexually stimulating material, guarding my look in the street, on TV, on internet, etc. Check. Rule number 3. Daily prayer. Check. Rule number 4. Following my day schedule. This includes going to sleep and waking up on time, starting and finishing work on time. Average. Rule number 5. At least one hour a day of activities not related to work, this site or empty internet browsing. Check. Rule number 6. Daily journaling. Here or personally. Check. Rule number 7. Memory practise. I will relate it to my studies, so that I would save time. Check. It is a reset, when any of first three rules is breached. I should follow others as much as possible.
Day 16 My romantic interest came over yesterday for lunch with my family, and then I went and played in a Yugioh tournament. I ended up in 13th place out of 17 (out of 32 if you count all of the people who dropped). Prizes only went to first place so most of us were going to leave with only the participation packs. I did two Spanish classes today, baked some bread, and did my laundry. Now I have a work meeting in 5 minutes, so I am posting quickly as I never checked in yesterday. Best, Mathman1994
day 33 I left instagram for few days as i say and the results are interesting -Little urges in all that time without it. -I didn't fish in all those days. Conclusion: I have to suspend instagram for a long time , i will use just if it a emergency. I will put this information in the prevention plan( it works as my Mithril in the journey).
150 days You reached Henneth Annûn, a hidden refuge of the Rangers of Ithilien. You're now the commander of armies and ruler of hearts. People love you. “Who am I?” “You are our King, sire!”
Day 40 monk mode. You try to pass through Caradhras but the PMO forces were strong there. You make a detour to the Dwarven Realm of Moria. Second 40 in one year. Also, finished one study project today. So maybe, as I promised to myself, I'll let myself relax with good movie (first part LOTR) and pizza pie. It's good if it's earned. Thought about speaking of some problematic and "sharp" topics here today but maybe I'll wait untill I'm more experienced, so that I could speak about it responsibly. I thank God that I'm still on this journey. And I thank you all. Have hope! Always! I believe that freedom from pmo is real but we have to change our lives a lot to reach it. Spoiler: Monk mode rules Rule number 1. Of course, no pornography, no masturbation, no orgasm. Check. Rule number 2. No searching for sexually stimulating material, guarding my look in the street, on TV, on internet, etc. Check. Rule number 3. Daily prayer. Check. Rule number 4. Following my day schedule. This includes going to sleep and waking up on time, starting and finishing work on time. More than average. Rule number 5. At least one hour a day of activities not related to work, this site or empty internet browsing. Check. Rule number 6. Daily journaling. Here or personally. Check. Rule number 7. Memory practise. I will relate it to my studies, so that I would save time. Check. It is a reset, when any of first three rules is breached. I should follow others as much as possible.
Day 189. Still battling some urges but keeping my progress within view. Why waste 189 days of accomplishment on a few minutes of failure?
Day 3 complete! I struggled with a mild urge for most of the evening but reached out to my AP to talk it over. The reason is that I was out and about all over town with a friend today. There was a carnal component, just catching glimpses of all the women enjoying the weather, but also that fact that it brought back (good) memories of spending time with other friends in the past. I guess it made me hungry for, not intimacy exactly, but just more close contact with people I care about who I haven't seen in a while. But I had enough presence of mind to recognize that PMO wouldn't give me those things and to leave it behind! St. Anthony of the Desert, pray for us!
Day 26, It has been a nonstop day and I have moved my desktop computer to a shared office space which will limit my access to P. I do have a laptop, however, it runs so slowly that it is useful really only as a word processor. Best to you all Fellowship!
Day 0 I've got to reset my counter again. It is crazy to think how things can change on a dime. I was feeling great today and then boom. I spent too much time on youtube and let my guard down. You give an inch, it'll take a mile. I am in a rut right now, I just know it, and I think its best that I take a little break from the site and spend some time thinking and getting out of this rut and loss of motivation I'm having in my life. I want to come back being able to look at everything with fresh eyes and a good mindset again. I do not know how much time that will be but I will be back on this challenge when I feel ready. Hopefully that is soon, and know that you are all in my prayers fellowship!
Hey, no worries. Hope you're doing okay! I don't know your situation so I want to be sensitive here and not project anything but know we're all here with you man. It can be good to get away and analyze but the danger can be to let that isolation carry too long. Naturally, you don't have to be here, but yeah. I've just had my rut's turn into caverns of depression and I don't want that for anyone. But that might be me projecting onto you too so just ignore this if so haha. Stay strong and blessings from the orcs... (it'd be from the fellowship but I ain't there yet. lol)
Hey Bro, I feel like I've been there (and will be again). Just wanted to encourage you with this kinda random Gandolf quote but for me has always been somehow applicable to me in those type of slightly depressed times. Perhaps because it's a weird reminder of hope when we can not see it. That there are forces at work around us and that we are never alone as we might think we are. Just take this large community as an example! Anyway, enjoy and blessings from an Orc P.S. I agree with RiseToGreatness. Carpe Diem
Curses! A moment of weakness last night caused me to wank, and I have fallen to becoming a Ringwraith. The worst of it was that I knew the inner cause of it, and could have prevented it. But because I know the cause, I can prevent it next time, because next time I will be stronger.
