The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in. Tough getting back into the swing of things after over a week away, but all's good. Be well everyone

 

Got a full day clean under my belt for the first time in about a week. My sleep schedule has been all kinds of messed up due to working some odd hours, and that hasn't helped. Neither did an attack by some porn bots. Still, as long as I'm making excuses, I'm not making improvements. Can't wait to stay clean another day. See you all later, wishing you all the best.

 

Keeping strong and steady still. I could be wrong, but I feel like I am having better dynamics with women at work lately. I'm not going to try anything with any of them, but it's just the only sample group I have. I was accidently being the creepy guy when I was PMOing constantly; I realized that I was constantly checking chicks out, staring at certain... body parts, etc. It was like compulsive, similar to my PMO usage. While guys do this, it was becoming extreme in my case, extreme enough to definitely get noticed... Very embarrassing. Anyway I feel as though my behavior in this way is improving gradually. I hope this is true and not just in my head.

 

13 days
Every day as a hobbit is a good day.

 

42 days.

Calm day with respect to urges but didn't feel completely at ease. An hour of walking + push-ups in the evening.

 

Day 15 completed, I’m a Hobbit now!

 

364 days dwarf king
440 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 16.

 

Can someone share your fantasies ,so that it would give me a peace of mind that I am not the only one stuck with such kind of fantasies?


Right now I am feeling very anxious and depressed due to this.

 

Day 141 no PMO. I had a good day with my family yesterday. We went to the local baseball game and also spent time at the pool.

 

Yeah ok thks . Maybe its only a withdrawal symptom

 

day 62
Moving forward

 

Day 2 - I decided that though Sunday and Monday were not the best in terms of meeting goals, I would set my counter to Sunday at 6AM just after I last PMO'd. I just need to meet 60% of my goals the next five days to get back on track to prevent a reset, as I am already 2/3 of the way to a reset from not meeting my goals the last two days. My days are super busy, but I think that I can meet my goals, if I put my mind to it, and budget my time wisely. I got up at 8:20AM today, much better than yesterday, but it was just before work was to start, so I had to rush downstairs to the basement office and start work. No breakfast, just some coffee and a glass of milk. As it is, that is usually all I need to get through the mornings. When I get up at 5:30AM, I usually need breakfast around 7:30/8AM, but when I get up after 8AM, I usually just eat lunch at 11AM. They say that breakfast is the most important meal of the day, but they have recently come out to say that it is more important to drink water early in the morning, and that you can skip breakfast if you do that. I have a bottle of water next to me. Coffee might not be the best idea as it is a diarrhetic, and I may eventually cut it out of my day again (I went without coffee for months a few years ago due to tachycardia, but that went away so I started drinking coffee again and it never came back). With that said, if I can train myself to wake up without coffee, then I will be so much better off.

I am glad to be two days clean. I made it about 2.25 days the previous streak, almost 5 days before that, and then 7 days and then 28 days. This streak will beat my 31 day no PMO record, I am determined of that.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 6. I'm on now to stay motivated not to relapse.

 

Congratulations mate!

 

Update! I made it through yesterday! I'm really happy about it.

I didn't sleep well last night though and I wasted a lot of time reading a book (that I randomly bought) instead of doing my study... So, though I'm happy I didn't mess up... I'm not satisfied that I made it through just by distracting myself with something else. That can't be the way I overcome this.

 

Day 45, trod on!

 

Congrats