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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Day 20 Check in!
10 days left!
I am very sorry to write that I've relapsed. I was on twitter, a saw a thing, one thing let to another, and... I don't follow any account that might make me want to relapse, but I have now noticed that what kind of accounts your followers follow is also important. After the relapsed, I was ashamed of myself, for a moment, and started research. I just wanted to know my errors. One of the video I watched on youtube he said "The main goal of Nofap is to improve your life, every day. Not just forbidding pm for yourself" Exactly! I think I have failed to improve myself, every day. So, I set some rules:
I'm going to uninstall every game on pc. They just force me to spend more time on pc and it is just a waste of time for me. I could read a book, watch a movie, listen to a song instead of playing computer games.
Between 22:00-09:00 I'm not going to look at my phone (Whatsapp is not included). I had been looking at my twitter or Instagram when I wake up. And to be honest, I felt horny in those hours.
I'm going to block every account that makes me want to relapse. Twitter was the source of my triggers and it needs to be cleaned.
I'm not going to go hard on myself. It happens.
I hate being an orc again. I know that one relapsed won't erase everything. But the first 3 days is very important because my brain finally got the dopamine it wants and I am sure it will want much more.
Thank you so much for the suggestion.
It's kind of subconscious thing because the urge came suddenly after I was awoken in the middle of the night. I was caught off guard with the urge (i noticed the heavy breathing, the libido spike).
And the next thing I edged the tingles off my dick until numb.
I kind of have to get used to this feeling of tingle. Acknowledging it as a part of the physical sensation. Because my auto pilot brain in the past was used to get the tingle sensation get away either through ejaculation or stimulation. Time to just know it and just do nothing actively hahaha.
To minas morgul...
Sonetimes my brain says to me "that was good, do it one more time. you will start your streak tomorrow" There is no way I would do this again.
Welcome brother!!! Let´s go!!!!
Keep going bro. Never let your defenses down Go!!!!
Awesome brother. You´ve arrived at the old Watch Tower of Amûn Sul, beware for the porn evil is strong here!!!
Very good brother!!! You´ve arrived at the old Watch Tower of Amûn Sul. Rest for the night, don´t make fires. Porn evil is lurking here....
sorry to hear that . there´s nothing wrong with videogames brother, as long as you play them in an open door room, with people in the house. don´t block all your sources of pleasure, some of them are harmless. you just need to create a triggers system and follow it with no exceptions.
some relapses are needed because they show us new triggers. most of all they show, in a painful way, that we need to boost our lifes or will be stuck in hell forever.
Rise again my brother, you can do it.
very good bro, one day at a time, just the walk of this day.
51 days my brothers.
today i feel a big desire to watch erotic content but i know where this come from. on the last days i´ve slack a little on my good habits and personal dreams so now the brain is starting to rebel against this grey life and wants to escape from it through porn, i understand.
i got to get back on the healthy excitment wagon again, today.
here´s what i wrote in 2/12/2019, the day after my relapse:
"i have the same problem bro. after a long streak i can keep up with the motivation. what i found out was 2 things:
first issue: lack of passion for the new life.
second issue: a hidden progressive belief than i can do pmo one time, and without harmful damages.
we got to deal with those two issues to overcome the addiction once and forever. let´s go!!!"
so now here i´m again, in hesitation.
the second issue is dealt. i know that´s not real. but the first issue is still happening. i´m gonna change that now. i will not peak today brothers, i promise you.
Hey your rule say no porn.
I did watch porn from here to there for a few second and I turned it off.
I did not masyurvate for 15 days now.
so watching porn is considering relapse also by your rules ??
Thank you brother @RiseToGreatness !
Let´s fight that and continue this journey all of us together!
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