The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 12

woohoo

 

Day 4 complete!

The urges intensified today, there were two notable peaks where my body really wanted me to masturbate, but I was in a good mental state to distance myself from those urges and to continue going about my day.

Yes, you're right. Thank you for your words. The thing is, almost everything I do here is reboot work, in a roundabout way. I want to grow closer to God and have a deeper relationship with Him. PMO takes me in the opposite direction, so I am constantly reminding myself to get rid of it in the middle of all those busy things.

 

Day 2 down, no urges but I had intercourse with my gf so that was pretty good, as opposed to P and M

 

Bro, it looks to me that you want a real change but refuse to change your 'diet' at the same time. You have a power to choose until you put that piece of 'food' into your mouth(it's hard to spit it out once it's there) after that you always get the, rather automatic, aftereffect (how can you expect good result from feeding yourself with poison that is made to make you sick and weak).

 

6 days

 

@RiseToGreatness Thank you for making such an exiting challenge .
I desperately want to join the challenge.
PMO has to be defeated.
So, Now I am a Nazgûl

 

79 days.

No urges yesterday. Took a vaccine shot for covid and haven't felt very good since then, so I guess I'll be staying in for some time.

 

Day 31!And as @12oveb graciously declares:

Trod on!

 

Day 50 of No PMO / Semen Retention / NoFap (hard mode). @RiseToGreatness update my rank I am Dwarf now.

 

Day 1 completed, back to Orcdom

 

49 days – You reached the Doors of Durin, the West-door of Moria.
Feeling happy for this. My confidence is increasing slowly I am really recovering. It seems like I am opening a bended rope from my body and mind so both are improving. Stay in path fellowship.

 

Day 6

Going forward with my head high.

I’ve started reading the lord of the rings again for the hundred time and I still love it. Last night I was readding the part where Pip is thinking about the palantír after he touches it for the first time. And he is tossing and turning and can’t sleep until he steals it from Gandalf.

Everyone, just go read that part again. That is the most “holy shit he is talking about porn” moment I have ever had. The way he know that he should just go to sleep, the way his legs just move on there on. It was amazing to read it.

Today is a good day. My morning routine is making a huge difference in my life. From a life of PMO every morning the moment I get up into a productive, healthy way of starting the day. I’m so happy now.

 

DAY 19 THURSDAY.

 

401 days high king
477 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Current streak: 477 days no PMO, semen retention

This is an advice that my father a real tantric master told me yesterday

“First of all recognize the illusion of this world, the materiality and mundanity of women in general, you need to have clear concepts about the deceit of the material life so this way you find the motivation to search the inner life which is what is really truthful."

Women in general love their egos, that is why it's so hard to find a good girl because a girl is how you meet her she won't change.

For me more than doing long semen retention streaks, living without sex, living as a monk, long hours of meditation, fasting, doing medical school, the most hard thing in my life has been to see a woman for what she really is, without lust blinding my sight.

Conclusion: if you can see a woman without lust for what she really is then you have taken the veil of illusion, you have become a bit more wise, free and a less confused. This is a step further to liberation.

 

Day 34

 

Day 178 no PMO. Yesterday was a rough day mentally/emotionally. A friend asked me how I was doing and I had to pause mid answer to not cry. I didn’t workout on Tuesday and that usually impacts my mood the next day so perhaps that was part of it. I expect today to be much better. Stay strong guys. One thing I know from experience is that looking at porn isn’t going to make me feel any better (in fact the opposite).