After reading the @ListenPaul post I came to think something. Do you guys feel that its harder to get through recovering in the winter comparing to summer? I cannot be sure of it, but I feel myself much better now that the winter is over here were I live. Those days of heavy rain, cold temperature and less sunlight gets me depressive as hell, and its a huge environmental trigger to relapse. Do you guys feel the same? Here where I live we have winters of 0°C to 10°C and summers of 25°C to 35°C, and it loses a lot of sunlight over the winter, in case of comparing. I think it's related to vitamin D and psychological issues.
Day 3 A lot of really strong urges again today but I got through every single one so I'm feeling extremely proud and empowered from todays battles. I found that self talk was helping ALOT today, I was talking to myself as if I was coaching myself. So, by this I mean I would say stuff like "Hey man I know you're feeling really shitty right now but I need you to keep holding on ok? You're doing insanely well, not many people would be able to get through something like this and you're doing it so you should feel amazing about yourself. Just a little bit further!" stuff like that. This is actually really really helpful so I highly recommend it.
49 days – You reached the Doors of Durin, the West-door of Moria. Time to go underground to be with the Dwarfs!
Checking in, still haven't worked out. I get tired after work....Maybe if I just start small. Any exercise is better than none.
Day 9 Had a tough day. Studied a few hours, and worked 8 hours. Don't really like it but I'm thankful that I can pay the rent,and because of the discipline it gives me.
Day 11. Today was a busy day working out, doing my work, studying, time for praying and reading some reboot material , I’m leaving one moment of the day for a quickly read of reboot material so I can stay focus everyday
Day 3 complete. My mind attempted to wander towards fantasies during class, but I quickly reined it back in. Making it to one week is usually a pretty big hurdle for me, so I can't cut myself any slack right now.
Double digits! Today I’ve done my morning meditation and just had 5 minutes of porn flashbacks. I hate when that happen, but that is part of doing meditation daily. On some level it’s really good to just sit with the pest experiences and being able to end the meditation, get up and go with my day without running to watch porn like I used to when that happen to me in the past. In less than 72 hours I’m starting my new life in berlin. We are at the “throwing everything out and painting the walls white” phase of the move and time just move so fast right now. I suggest that anybody who want’s to get the first two weeks of nofap to just try to immigrate into a different country, you won’t even have time to fap, it’s like cheat codes. I’m just happy that at the same time I’m building good habits and trying to turn my life around so even when stuff would calm down I could keep going and won’t just crash.
IF ANY ONE CAN HELP MEE THAT HOW SHOULD I FOLLOW MONK MODE AS I AM A STUDENT AND MY MOST OF THE TIME PASSSES IN FRONT OF A SCREEN HOW SHOULD I RESIST MY PMO HABITS AND I LIVE ALONE PREPARING FOR COLLEGE ENTRANCE CANNOT MOVE OUT ..
Day 200 no PMO!!! Feeling good today. 200 seems like a big number to me and I am happy to have that notch in my belt. Now looking ahead to 365 days!
