I have this verse on my mind right now and I want to share it with you. Matthew 25:31-46 The Sheep and the Goats 31When the Son of Man comes in His glory, and all the angels with Him, He will sit on His glorious throne. 32All the nations will be gathered before Him, and He will separate the people one from another, as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33He will place the sheep on His right and the goats on His left. 34Then the King will say to those on His right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave Me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave Me something to drink, I was a stranger and you took Me in, 36I was naked and you clothed Me, I was sick and you looked after Me, I was in prison and you visited Me.’ 37Then the righteous will answer Him, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give You something to drink? 38When did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and clothe You? 39When did we see You sick or in prison and visit You?’ 40And the King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of Mine, you did for Me.’ 41Then He will say to those on His left, ‘Depart from Me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave Me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave Me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not take Me in, I was naked and you did not clothe Me, I was sick and in prison and you did not visit Me.’ 44And they too will reply, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to You?’ 45Then the King will answer, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for Me.’ 46And they will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”
Day 29. More than 1000 pages and 20000 messages in this thread! Congrats to all and specially to @RiseToGreatness ! St. John Henry Newman, pray for us!
Day 214 no PMO. Should be a good day today. Sun will be out but not too hot. Have a great weekend everyone.
Day. 25 I'm having a good day, did some house chores, now starting my studies and later at the afternoon my work and my workout at the evening , the discipline on my life and the read reboot material is helping me so much on my recovery journey on my way to Mordor. keep it up brothers and sisters ¡¡
This is amazing! I love this idea! I wish something like this were around when I was last here a few years ago. Could I join? I am on day 3! 1-7 days >> Orc (The spell of porn is strong in you)
Day 5 - Relapsed - Back to Nazgûl Unfortunately my addiction's voice was very loud today so this time I was finding it extremely difficult to just "accept and ignore it", I was getting a really bad headache all day because of the constant urges that I wasn't able to sit well with at all. I kept noticing that my addiction was trying to convince me and I was able to resist it's allure for some time but eventually I was tricked again. I was getting a LOT of triggers today which kept sticking in my head and accumulating so today wasn't feeling very promising from the beginning. I was trying to combat that "this doesn't feel like a good day, I'm probably gonna relapse" thought loop but it kept popping back up. I went out on a walk with my Mum for a couple of hours and was getting triggered over and over because we were walking by a beach, I was also getting triggered from my friends too because they kept sending nsfw memes in our Discord group. The thing that ultimately made me relapse was a very simple mistake on my part which I have no excuse for because it was such an obvious mistake: I needed to go to the toilet so I went with my phone whilst having this really strong urge. Even after I finished going to the toilet I just sat there with my urge feeling stressed because my addiction wouldn't shut up and leave me alone and so eventually I was convinced to relapse. The trick that my addiction used against me this time was actually my therapy, "you've started therapy so it's ok if you relapse now because you'll get better anyways.", I should've distracted myself with games or music or whatever this time because I wasn't able to just ignore it but even then my addiction was blocking that, convincing me it wouldn't work. I need to just ignore any and all thoughts once my urges are that strong, not myself and not my addiction because they tend to merge once the urge is that strong so I struggle to figure out who's talking, and that's how I get tricked. I should just automatically go to the list of distractions that I have prepared instead of trying to think of what to do each time, because its highly likely I'll just be convinced to relapse, if that makes sense. I'll do better.
Checking in. Overall, I feel depleted of energy and I'm having a hard time to concentrate on work/study tasks. Probably due to my bad relapse, but I shouldn't care too much about that but rather focus on the reboot work. Spoiler: Daily tasks 1. Physical exercise. (Done; lots of walking as well as a set of push-ups + squats.) 2. Meditation. (Done; 10 unfocused minutes but it counts.) 3. Study about reboot. (Done; listened to a podcast episode with Gabe Deem.) 4. Eating moderately. (Done; 2 reasonable sized meals within a 6 hour window.)
Day 64... I have got to improve, this isn't acceptable. I have been on here more than in the past, but I'm at least partly using it as a procrastination tool. I need short term goals that take a lot of effort, but are reachable. I have lots of long term goals that are way out of reach, but not much for the short term. Here are a few: Be in bed by 11 and up by 8 Become a Grey Wizard Reach intermediate calisthenic workout level Clean place fully and maintain it at least weekly Do not eat out or eat prepackaged junk, only home made meals Complete online course I am in Until I reach these goals I will try to stop worrying about the other stuff. These are the building blocks to my commitment to greater health. When I achieve these I'll know I'm serious. I think I can have this all done and sustained by December.
Guys I was going through internet just then an ad popped up and led me to a site [should have had used my own laptop]. But I closed everything in 5 mins and didn't fap. But I was exposed to porn again so Falling back to day 0. I am angry at myself for not blocking popups on all family devices .
Day 25! I have to admit that I'm pretty surprised with myself. After a long series of short and ugly-failled streaks of (at best) one week, I got to 25 days! I've been trying to life each day by itself, one day at a time, and it has been working pretty well (BTW, thanks to @RiseToGreatness for these advice). Besides that, I'm passing through some dificult times in my life, I'm harvesting what I had sow for years. It's both disappointing and motivating, cuz I don't want to passed through it in the future again, so this situation leads me to a tranquil but steadfast mindset. And even in those times, the Lord proves his faithfulness and tenderness with his children, and I can't be gladder. Hope I'll be able to keep this mentality of living the day and making it count for longer times. So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! (1 Corinthians 10:12)
