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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Checking in brotherhood!!
Good to see you all well and focusing on your recovery process. No relapses today, so congratulations to all
As for me, feeling a bit foggy today, but i´m hanging in . The urges have reduced and are now lighter
Have a great day brave Warriors!!!! Checking out
Continuing with sympthoms of porn addiction. "Your brain on porn", page 58
"Here are some brain changes that show up in all addictions, whether substance or behavioural:
2. Sensitisation, or an unconscious super-memory of pleasure that, when activated, triggers
powerful cravings. Rewired nerve connections cause the reward circuit to buzz in response to
addiction-related cues or thoughts – the ‘fire together wire together’ principle. This Pavlovian
memory makes the addiction more compelling than other activities in the addict's life.
Cues, such as turning on the computer, seeing a pop-up, or being alone, trigger intense cravings
for porn. Are you suddenly much hornier (true libido) when your wife goes shopping? Unlikely. But
perhaps you feel as if you are on autopilot, or someone else is controlling your brain. Some describe
a sensitised porn response as ‘entering a tunnel that has only one escape: porn’. Maybe you feel a
rush, rapid heartbeat, even trembling, and all you can think about is logging onto your favourite tube
site. These are examples of sensitised addiction pathways activating your reward circuit, screaming,
‘Do it now!’"
Day 23 monk mode journey.
I got up on time. But the problem is I was tempted again to go into fantasies. I should try more to nip them at the bud, which is a bit complicated because level of consciousness is not that high right after sleep. As a consequence I was tempted to watch p but like yesterday I exercised and went for a long walk, which is becoming nice morning habit. Helps circadian rhythms I hear.
Exercise no 3. Sleep.
I read through the posts and saw that many people complain about sleep quality recently. The problem is that many of us don't have strict sleep hours and the body is confused. So I propose an exercise of setting times, when we start preparing for sleep and when we turn the lights off. And, of course, going by those hours in the evening. For me it will be 8:30 pm - preparing for sleep (usually I do hygiene, and then I read or come to forums to reflect, if needed) and 11:20 pm - lights off. I don't do anything productive later anyway.
Day 3, guys, just believe in yourself, you can get rid of the PMO!
Day 3 completed
I just fell. Weird how I keep relapsing at 7 in the morning.
I am happy to continue my journey again after breaking longer streak. Just watching P for little time to get little pleasure. BTW Now I am weak in sense of my mind because my mind is hungry for dopamine now and these beginning days are difficult and important I know. So I will keep this continue this journey try to reach 500 days Mount doom to destroy the ring...
In a weak moment I edged. Should I consider it as a relapse?
Day 2 of being an Orc, feeling stronger mentally every day. IT IS INSANE HOW MUCH BETTER EACH PASSING DAY IS. I hit rock bottom like you wouldn't believe this year, just glad to be back.
Learned that I need to stop drinking while on this challenge though. Start thinking about bad decisions, leaves me hungover and feeling weak the entire next day, and generally ruins my mojo.
"Edging", "fishing" - this can mean anything from keeping an eye open for pics of attractive persons to masturbating while watching porn without O.
You don't need to go into details but explain us what excactly happened
Agreed. Actively fixing that before it gets out of hand.
I'm finally an elf! Those weeks went faster than I'd thought. Feeling grateful for this time, it's a lot more than I used to do. Honestly, I can't point one specific thing that has dramatically changed for me to reach this month (considering that I used to do only one week streaks), but I think it's the sum of all slight changes that helped me. And yet I'm passing through some pretty turbulent times, and this kind of stress used to be a huge trigger.
I'll see my therapist today and we'll point some of the things that has been working, and then I'll share with you
Let's keep going, this ring still needs to be destroyed!
Day 0 - Nazgûl
Good picture. Makes me think. About the journey.
Day 57 ! It feels incredible
day 84 - warrior
Getting ready to leave Hobbiton. Wish me luck, I'm out to cast this ring into the fire. With some good guidance, it's doable.
Today so far: 7.5 hours of sleep, cold shower, prayer, 15 minutes of writing, weightlifting, walking.
Up next: reading, meditation, more prayer, reasonable bedtime.
It was just masturbation without porn and without orgasm