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The Matrix Challenge

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by -Angel-, Jan 3, 2023.

Are you ready to leave the Matrix for good?

  1. Yes

    107 vote(s)
  2. No

    1 vote(s)
  1. My addiction is sexting and captions on girls pic on chatiw. I write dirty meme and jerk to them. It’s not even porn but I spent hours like 8 hours to find 4-5 girls who share their pics semi nudes sometime nudes. Most times they are showing amateur pics from internet but sometimes they show their own. It’s the driving force to make me addicted to it. I caption various themes and wank to them hard. It’s a rut and hell as it takes a lot of time and effort plus edging in middle when a hot girl pic shows up and I caption as per her needs. some needs are extreme: bdsm dominating her, being her cuckold, chastity. Bbc theme, femdom, blacked etc. what can I do to fix it away? It’s the ultimate addiction.
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  2. I am sorry to say lotus
    But this is just an excuse
    If something is trapping you
    Can't you avoid using it
    Is it very important
    I know this is childish advice but you seem to be very less interested in NOFAP journey.
    If you really know what is pulling you
    Can't you just cut all the connections from it
    I don't use Instagram but I check the messages by logging in through Google. Instagram has lot of triggering stuff.
    I will say, give time to yourself to think what is better for you
    You will find your own way to help yourself
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  3. Sorry I was extremely frustrated to keep failing. It’s my 3rd reset in a single week. It’s my Day 0 today, you are right. I need rest. I have deleted everything already. I don’t know how can I explain but whenever urge arises, I do all the steps such as puting the book on my bedside away slowly into drawer so I don’t see it. Breaking the rule of bringing my phone from table to bed. End up locking the door and hiding in the blanket so my room ambience set for NoFap would not damage my fap. End up into triggers by unblocking the block app. All this I do in less than 30 seconds. However, when I wake up in morning. Simply moving out my bed takes me a long hour despite I know I got work to do. The reason I am explaining here so shamelessly is I kind of want to let out how I behave and break the barrier of my addict self (who does things quickly and evil to get what it wants, how fast this is and severe this is depends on level of addiction) This level of addiction gets worse with time. If you have made this far and read it, I hope it helps atleast one person to stop their journey cold turkey. I am doing this to feel a sense of positivity as I could feel to lift myself up back tomorrow. Sorry guys for such long posts. I know most of you have been doing well here and don’t need it as much as I do. Firstly I am writing this to let myself out.
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  4. -Angel-

    -Angel- Fapstronaut

    The only thing you can do is the one thing we all must do on a daily basis. Acknowledge the urge and say you won't give in. I'm watching one video on semen retention a day to remind me why I'm doing this.

    I used to be hooked on chatrooms, and finding women to masturbate on cam with. I'd spend 12 hours+ daily, edging and watching them. That time has decreased in the past, and now with creating with this thread, it's the utter realisation that the woman on the screen isn't real. It can be pics, videos, but still, it's not a real woman next to me, pleasuring me, nor I pleasuring her. It's not real. And then ask what benefits do you get from masturbating?

    I've hit a severe flatline, and everything's a struggle. Sleep, getting out of bed, remembering things, vision. I don't find joy in anything, even comedy. My dopamine levels have fallen below normal levels, and that's part of recovery, and may help to explain some of your struggles. You're struggling to get out of bed, but that urge is there. Your brain is screaming to feed it a massive explosion of dopamine.

    Don't worry about people doing well. I don't know anyone who's succeeded on their first attempt. I think we've all relapsed more times than we can remember, and long streaks are down to many factors. Remember, it's not necessarily the quantity of days, but the quality of those days. Someone on 30 days could be much further in their recovery than someone on 100 days, purely because of their lifestyle, diet, exercise, supplementation, and so on.
  5. Did you remember just some days back
    I have been in the same condition
    I was being trapped again and again

    What I did after that
    I took one day break from other thoughts
    I put all the focus on understanding how I am getting trapped
    And I got solutions on same day

    And solutions is
    I don't forget
    Why I should not masturbate
    And how to fight the urges

    These two things are very clear in my mind
    And today is 8th day
    And I feel strong

    Just relax
    I don't know why you are having that book which is getting your attention
    Lifestyle is everything
    And lifestyle develops when we create such atmosphere for it
    And atmosphere develops when our mind is very clear that what to do what not to do
    It is psychological game bro
    Last edited: Jan 17, 2023
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  6. Gabriel Knight

    Gabriel Knight Fapstronaut

    Just like in the Matrix movie, nobody jumps above the building for the first time. Same is here on Nofap. I had few reboots myself, but as i am slowly strengthening my prefrontal cortex, my streaks are longer with less of triggers.
    I remember 2 or 3 days ago i accidentally saw a chick in bikini, if i would be on the beginning of this journey i would reboot certainly. Now it is not the case. I am currently experimenting and testing my current limits. And slowly push it further accordingly. And there should be a big distinction between full blown addiction and a very small p usage. It is not the same.
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  7. Thank you for sharing your experience with me. It does feel comforting to know people have overcame these similar struggles and move a step ahead. I am immensely overwhelmed by the non judge-mental understanding of my situation. It helps me put things back in perspective. I am tired of this sure but I will fight and learn to fight better. The blue pill tricks us as soon as we reset. I am fighting as I know something’s wrong, it’s like the spinchter in my mind. Telling me that this world is not real. I need to create my own reality but in order to do that I must learn the rules of the system. Some of these can be bend and broken but not escaped. As long as I play the Game, I need to know the rules well so I don’t look at the women in the red dress.
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  8. When I mentioned about book, that book is kept deliberately at the side table so I use it at night and don’t use my phone which should be on opposite desk table where all electronics are kept. I mentioned that book thing to show that I have taken measures but I do all stuff in 30 sec to even put that book ( religious text) back in drawer. Was frustrated to explain the extent the addiction can get you to. I am feeling better now. I won’t masturbate as my why is clear. I want to be a contributor and not just a consumer in society. Porn is cheap dopamine consumption which belittles the ability of any person and make him less than his true potential and what he can contribute. I will remind myself this when I feel the urge. I would say. Do I want to choose to become less than my true potential? Do I want to spend my time consuming cheap dopamine? Thank you!
    Last edited: Jan 17, 2023
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  9. I will keep trying till I make the jump. Thanks for motivating me. Yes one porn use is not equal to abundance. I have had 3 resets in the week. All atleast 4 hour sessions on chat rooms therefore I was extremely frustrated and disappointed in myself.
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  10. zixy

    zixy Fapstronaut

  11. I am extremely busy for next 21 days. I will be off the website. Hopefully I will have a 21 day streak when I return. Good luck to everyone!
    Last edited: Jan 17, 2023
  12. Don80

    Don80 Fapstronaut

    Day 1
    "Knowing the path and walking the path is a differeint thing"
  13. Pauley

    Pauley Fapstronaut

    Day 65 - now I'm Trinity! I spend my time doing crazy jumps through the air while wearing tight catsuits!

  14. Lou Bloom

    Lou Bloom Fapstronaut

  15. Ūruz

    Ūruz Fapstronaut

  16. Good to see progress here guys. Stay strong

    Check in
  17. -Angel-

    -Angel- Fapstronaut

    Thanks for letting me know. I'll leave you under Blue Pill until you return. Good luck, and keep a look out for those Porn Agents.
  18. Gabriel Knight

    Gabriel Knight Fapstronaut

    Until i update my memes and rank, do you guys know some online service where you can trace the image over the animated gif? So that when animation plays the image goes over the lets say head, and follow its position.
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  19. Gabriel Knight

    Gabriel Knight Fapstronaut

    Sure, welcome, just check out the first page to see which rank your days corresponds to, and put the information in the signature. Red_John is currently offline, he will give you more details if needed:)

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