The Matrix Challenge

One more relapse
8th in this month
Ridiculous af this has become for me now.
Worse than previous two months of 7-7 relapses.

I am not even trying now

 

Day 13 - No trash allowed.

Let's go Team. Stay the course.

 

Day 24

If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:8-9

 

Day 14

 

Well okay
I will report the number of relapse at the end of each month
Till then , put me in exile program

Though, I can come here to see success of you people
I am trying to focus on reducing my mobile usage to control it.

Thanks mate for your reply

 

Focus on the number of clean days in a month instead. We are just humans. Start from the positive waypoint.

Tonight I'll be fighting a battle for a positive change.

 

Or you can make the chart and mark few days as successful in advance to trick your brain to go further. It helps in my case.

 

Day 9

 

day 1

Yesterday I watched a podcast how dopamine works. This is how I understood it:
The dopamine (pleasure) is released when you have an urge and need for something (hunger, S, gaming, learning a language). Then its level goes down and you take action to achieve that goal. Some of those goals require a lot of effort and time (hunger - make yourself a sandwich or go to a restaurant, language a foreign language - spending years learning it on a daily basis). Others offer higher dopamine spikes without much effort and in short time (PMO, substances, gaming). However, the higher and quicker the spike in dopamine, the lower its drop below the baseline. As a result, after PMO you feel low and anxious again. Moreover, those dopamine spiking activities lead to lower highs and deeper lows over some time. As result, you need to repeat the negative behavior more often to raise your dopamine level. That's the vicious circle of addiction.

 

Day 14 - Ranking up to Red Pill Truther

Truth & Revelation over ignorance.

It’s a new month, April, let’s make it a good one Crew.

 

Day 107!

 

I completely forgot to post yesterday (Day 3).

Day 4 today and started it off by watching…. The formula 1 qualifying, and to top it off the team I support did well so a positive start to the day!

Good vibes and energy to everyone, let’s get after it

 

Day 15 | Red Pill Truther

 

Day 25

Jesus answered and said to them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.”

Luke 5:31-32

 

So comprehensible
But hard to free yourself from dopamine slavery

 

Last month was successful regarding my progress plan, now lets make this one even better, i start with a motivational meme:

 

Day 88 - Trinity