The Need to Feel Miserable (A never ending cycle)

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Second_chance, Oct 29, 2020.

  1. Second_chance

    Second_chance Fapstronaut

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    I've struggling with porn for years now since i've met NoFap. I sometimes feel like this is a loss battle i keep relapsing, now that i broke up with my gf (we've been 3 years) i find really hard to release all that urges in a healthy way.

    How do you manage it?

    It's like i am good for a couple of days, especially the moment after a good shower, i feel good spirit and feeling good with myself but then a couple of days pass and its like unconsciously i WANT to feel bad, so i start eating shit, not shaving, chasing urges and fap, and not even showering for a couple of days. I don't know sometimes i feel like i want to feel miserable and dirty just to hit bottom and then one day i push myself to get a shower and feel clean and be in good spirit and be up again.

    But it's like cycle that i keep bouncing between two states.

    I dont know if you can relate or if you even understand something, but anyway i have to get it out of my chest
     
  2. PappinAce

    PappinAce Fapstronaut

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    Oscillating between joy and misery is something that I think many of us here go through. I can tell you that it's better than being permanently miserable. You are getting glimpses of tranquility, and you know what a healthy spirit feels like, even if it is only for a few moments. If wellbeing has entered into your experience even once, then you have something to orient yourself towards, something to strive for, and what's more, you know that it is attainable.
     
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  3. Second_chance

    Second_chance Fapstronaut

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    Thank you so much for your kind words! really i appreciated it, i never thought it that way. Thank u!
     

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