The Next Step

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Sprinter123, Jul 15, 2018.

  1. Sprinter123

    Sprinter123 Fapstronaut

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    I've just realised that today marks one week since my One Year NoFap anniversary. I started my first reboot at midnight on the 11th of August 2017. Today is the 18th of August 2018. I have come a very long way since then. Granted i have had a couple of re-lapses since then, but by and large it has been a whole year since i have abstained from Porn and porn-related masturbation.
    It's been 146 days since i last used porn, and i feel really good about where i am today. I am no longer driven by an irrational desire to look at porn, and it is no longer a thing which i crave on a daily, or even weekly basis. I can now masturbate when i feel like it, without it being a self-destructive, shame filled activity which warps my sense of self and sexual identity.
    I am engaging in more healthy relationships in my life and am combating the destructive neediness and over-charged sex drive which drove all my past romantic entanglements.
    For anyone out there who is just starting out on their NoFap journey, or is struggling to keep straight, I would say to you, to be strong, stay the course. The road is hard and filled with potholes, but if you just keep going and pick yourself up and start again after every fall, then it is totally, absolutely worth it.
    Thank you NoFap and all you people out there who helped me to get this far. Living a porn free life, is so much better :)
     
  3. Freelectron

    Freelectron Fapstronaut

    So glad to hear this from you mate! Your story is so inspirational, keep going!
     
  4. Sprinter123

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    It's een a while since i posted in these Forums, but i figured i would check in and post about how i'm feeling and what's going on with me now.
    It's been 234 days since i last used porn. I think that's a pretty big fucking achievement and i'm very pleased with myself for that. I am masturbating if and when i feel like it, but nowhere near as much as i used to and i no longer feel the urge to do so every waking moment. probabaly no more than twice a week these days. I don't know if that's a lot or a little and frankly i din't really care, it's just what works for me. I won't say that i have managed to completely disasociate the act of masturbation from the idea of pornography. Although i never use porn when i masturbate, the desire to fantasise about pornographic scenarios does sometimes rear it's head. But if i find that is becomeing a problem, i am able to fight those urges and just try to enjoy the experience without tainting it with weirdness.
    I have purchased a fleshlight, which i might help with my premature ejaculation problem if i have that to practice with. Plus it makes the act of masturbation something more of a ritual that requires time and care, not just soemthing that i done becuase of boredom. Of course it's nothing like real sex, it pales in comparison, but it's also a far cry from old lefty and i think that it furthur helps to distance myself to how i used to do things. I'd be interested to hear what other people have to say about this though.
    Besides from the porn and self-sex life however i have been having some problems recently. I was in a relationship for a few months, which brought to the suface a rather ugly anxiety problem which has been bubbling under the surface for years. I won't go into the infinite details of all the issues surrounding this but I think that the premature ejaculation problem which i've suffered with for years is tied into it all along with a lot of other stuff about what i want from life and how i relate to women and lots of other stuff. Suffice to say that i've got a lot of shit i need to work out. Thankfully i've been seeing a councillor to help me through these issues and i feel like i'm making some progress. All of this however did of course lead to the break-down of said relationship, but i'm trying to work myself out and the door there isn't completely closed so maybe we can work stuff out.
    So 234 days into not using porn and i'm happy that i'm not using porn. With how i'm feeling at the moment i thik i'd be 100 times even more unhappy with who i am if i was still indulging in that bad habit. My ability to swear of porn is soemthing which makes me feel better about myself, or at least less bad. It's something that i can hold up to my ego and say 'at least i don't jerk off to porn any more'. Hoepfully it's a good foundation on which to rebuild a lot of other stuff.
    Sorry that this is a bit of a downer, but that's how i'm feeling right now. Hopefully things will get better and i'll be more cheerful the next time i check in.
     

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