The Nofap Eunuch (Saw Palmetto)

So have u had experience with saw palmetto or monks pepper?

 

Ok so I kan stop taking saw palmetto and just take monks pepper instead I also bought hops herbs that can help lower libido. Are those better options

 

: ( than how can I supress my urges?

 

I think whats getting me is isolation, I grew up homeschooled and as a child I could never make friends. I couldnt socialize at all. As A teen I was abused by guys who were bigger than me and I started to feel weak inside. I began to have fantasies of trans women. before the abuse. I enjoy helping people, but I dont know how to help myself. ive overcame self injury from years ago and I have hundreds of scars of my arms that tell a tale. I have had BIG self esteem issues and lashed out by being brutally negetive and verbally abusive beyond what a girl could ever do.

 

My simp tale really put my over the edge, that`s when I took the red pill and have not looked back, I know not all women are like the girl in my simp tale, but I just don`t think I can get out there. I`m 29yr virgin and have no experience with girls other than my simp tale. I`m scared of girls, and ive been scared of girls for years, it freaks me out. I`m scared to death of sex and dont think my private is big enough, i was exposed to pxnis as a child by various boys in the neighborhood and they were always bigger than me. (they were teens to, I was like 5) It really imprinted me on what a "man is supposed to be" So I idolized large pxnis and prayed to god I would have a huge member, well I started puberty late, at 16, I was the same size from 12-28 and after losing over 100lbs im just now growing. I was full set on getting surgery to increase myself. I even went on tumblr and looked at big dxck posts, sizing all of those guys up, wondering whats the right size for me. Than I would look at non op trans girl and fantasize about having them and them entering me. It was really bad times. Now that ive taken monks pepper, ive no need to look at such dxck pics and im slowly leaving trans women. I still want to cuddle with women and other types of girls but my body is numb, but my mind is still needing that fix. So I look at stuff and stay numb and wonder why am I doing this? Hope this helps luciferious

 

hey guys here`s an update, if you guys have noticed I have been resetting my counter a lot. I keep on getting on social media, which messes me up. I have decided to change my goals, I want to build up to monk mode, but doing it all at once is too hard. I will be just cut porn and social media, I think that`s fair, i`m taking monks pepper. I believe that`s better than saw palmetto. This will help curb my desires. I decided to take this route to give myself some lean way. My problem isn`t masturbation anymore its porn. My theory is that if I go 90 days without porn and really cut back on social media unless I have to contact my teacher or write a report with one of my students in my group in class, I will be fine. I go on Facebook to contact with my fellow students about stuff but that`s it. I don`t go on twitter due to the lady boys. I don`t go on Instagram due to the lady boys, so that`s cutting out the worst parts. i`ve blocked all social media on my desktop and laptop and can only access Facebook through my phone or at the library. Again I think that`s fair. This is not what I wanted to do but I need to kick porn out of my life and I think if I do that I will naturally stop MO. Anyway what do you guys think?

 

hey guys 6 days clean from porn but can still M and O.

I saw my psych doctor and she ok`d me to take saw palmetto, it doesnt interact with any of my meds but monks pepper and hops do. So I cant take them. Anyway I`ll be taking 2 saw palmetto pills instead of 3-5 a day. I think thats fair, I will be taking an estrogen blocker once I get off all of my meds for high blood pressure and high cholestrol and diabetes etc. Anyway back on saw palmetto happy halloween!

 

hey guys back on an update with my journey to being a eunuch. I`ve officially took my saw palmetto pills just now, I didnt take them for 2 weeks and even though I abstained from adult material, I was draining myself like CRAZY. it was bad. So im back on being a eunuch Anyway I`m going to change the title of this thread. Its going to be called the path of the eunuch.

 

hey guys I decided to restart my counter. I have been laying low on here because I`ve been busy and I have gotten into some controversy here So I`ve been playing nice by myself Anyway I have been doing OK on just without porn, but something started to happen. I began to fap to stuff on you tube. And it was about 3x a day, but no porn. But I knew I was compensating for other stuff, sexy stuff on you tube is porn for me. I knew my mind was still reward (dopamine) starved and anything would over drive it and numb it. So that`s what happened. As I continued to fap like crazy, my mind was playing tricks on me, I was having dreams about tgirls that I wont go into. I started to crave all the things that messed me up in the first place. I caught myself and started back on saw palmetto. I will be looking for an estrogen metabolizer when I get off all of my other physical medicines. That herb helps me, and doesn`t interact with my SSRI and my mood stabilizer. So yea looks like ill be the herbal eunuch yet again so I`ve locked my desktop from nearly everything at home. I can only use my extreme vega 56 gaming pc for downloading games on steam, and doing homework, that`s it. As for my retired gaming laptop, I can use it aclittle when I`m at school or in a public place, but other than that I`ll be blocking everything on it as well. I`m currently at my job doing 3rd shift Anyway anything I want I will be downloading it at public places or at my job, and everything will be SFW, ok thats it for the update ok bye

 

MoPai : D

 

I hope newcomers take this thread as an example of how NOT to do nofap.

 

hey guys I`m 31 days free from porn! ITS OFFICIAL!

 

Good job mate

 

thanks, im so close to 40! cant beileve it