Like many of us here, I have a long history of PMO. I guess it started 4 decades ago when I found my Dad's "playboy" stash under his bed. 20 years later I found internet porn. Yes, I am an addict. And what is the solution for addicts? Change of mind! And discipline! During the last 3 years I have been coming out of my "mid life crisis" very gradually. It started in 2018 with a decision to quit consuming alcohol, which always was a major "trigger", and through the AA program I was led to discover a new path, a path to freedom. This path to freedom is through a "change of mind", which in my opinion is essential for success, and when I say success, I mean a life without bondage, a life without bondage to anything! I have learned that the mind is a powerful tool that can be used in a creative and "good" way, however it takes practice, as with anything that requires skill. The question is: do I want to control my mind or do I want my mind to control me? Since my "AA birthday" Nov. 5th 2018, my PMO episodes have steadily declined, typically 10 day clean streaks alternating with PMO caused by stressful events or triggers like depression or sexual "urges". This last winter was a transformation. I spent much time alone, in sort of a self-imposed isolation. My time was spent focusing on changes in diet, exercise, sleep patterns and reading books that primarily deal with philosophical and Spiritual issues. Also, meditation and self-contemplation. The result of these activities is that I have re-discovered a part of my "self" that lay dormant for 3 decades, 3 decades of a troubled marriage, raising children, working, you know, the typical modern struggle of being a "husband" and "father". The beauty of re-discovering this part of my "self" is that I can now combine it with all of the lessons I've learned during the last 30 years. During the last 6 months I've had sporadic PMO instances, but finally, on April 5th 2021 I decided to do the same thing that I did on Nov. 5th 2018, namely quit for good. Has it been easy? No, life is not easy. But it has been a major confirmation to me that the timing was absolutely perfect! These last 30 days I wrote daily in my thread on the "Re-booting" forum and time has flown by so fast like never before. "Discipline" can not be understated for an addict, because addicts are prone to "triggers", and when I encounter them or the notorious "urges", that's when discipline kicks in, or like my buddy said who used to box for a living: Roll with the punches!