Today I had a painful feeling in my stomach. I think it was anxiety, and my coping mechanism to deal with anxiety is edging proceeded with PMO. I was in public and seeing people wearing clothes with no sleeves, even just the sight of arms gave me flashbacks of P. I had a mild panic that I'm actually giving this up. The problem is that my unit does not work, I can't get arroused and when I do it's hard to stay up for very long, so when I FAP I have to use devices that you buy from adult toy shops to help me reach an O, the device I'm referring to is an artificial silicon mouth, along with a P**** ring to increase the blood flow, then I would smoke an electronic cigarette to get an odd sensation followed by watching P, from then I would search hours for videos that had actors that resembled the people in public that I saw who triggered me. I threw away my electronic cigarettes so without that I can not enjoy watching P nor feel the same sensation so I physically can not get it up enough to O. So I have this fiery frustration. My heart is beating faster because I don't have my devices and I can't believe I have actually made this decision, i get the same nervous feeling one would have after a cup of coffee. Just needed to vent my mind is pretty clouded right now and I don't know what point I'm trying to make but I needed to let this out.