Hi guys. Today I want to share with you something really important to me. It's just not about porn and fapping, but i believe it's really crucial part of reboot. So what I know about commitments? Well im maybe the worst person in the world to tell you about commitments. I was afraid of them almost whole my life. I never wanted to have a kids, i never wanted to get married i even hate to choose between mayonnaise and ketchup. If there was an event i should sign to I rather stay home than promise something i should keep... I guess some of you feel somehow similar abour commitments, right? But i tell you one thing - this fear of commitments crippled me for large part of my life. I didn't do anything that matters because i was afraid. I was afraid i'll do some wrong choices so i rather do not live at all. My fear of commitments was something that keep me PMO. How is that possible? Even if i did not realize I really have a problem, sometimes (very rarely) i feel i do something i don't want to. I developed some disgusting fetishes i did not want to. But did i choose to quit? Well maybe for week, or month... But for good? Are you kidding me? What if I'll miss it? What if this kink is who i really am? What if i'll feel miserable for quitting this disgusting habit? Nope. I would better wank my dick off than change my life. My GF keep telling me i should quit and how im hurting myself (in a kind and supportive way) but i didnt want to listen to her. I was too afraid i'll do bad decision that i did not realize i already did the worst decision at all. To ruin my life with PMO. So what changed? In that time i was dating this girl. I was dating her for 8 years or so and i was really afraid to propose to her. Only think about marriage and kids freaked me out. Everyone asked us when we'll get married. And we grow older and older and our relationship stagnated. I was stuck. We already lived together, had somehow satisfying love life (at least as satisfying as it can be for porn addict), but i refused to move on. And then i realise that if i dont do it, our relationship will break up, or we'll live together as two empty unhappy people. So I decided to do the step. I was scared as shit, but i ordered custom made ring just for her, travel to some special place with her and propose to her. But it was not the moment when she said "yes" that changed my life. What changed my life for good was the decision itself. The one big step into a darkness. It was so liberating and it felt so good. I was in charge of my life again. Maybe it was the wrong decision (imsure it was not), but it returns me to life from death. And i did the same thing when i decided to quit porn. I wasn't think about it as "trying", or quitting for limited period of time. I considered this habit really thoroughly and i decided to quit for good. With no exceptions, excuses, escape exits. I decided not to PMO again. Period. And even if i still struggle with it and feel urges all the time i keep in mind this decision. And its not scary. It is liberating, because i know i wont do it again, i wont fall into this trap of selfpittiness and anxiety. It may be hard but it feels so great. And yeah, she said yes and we'll get married next week. And im really excited about it. Wish us luck, guys.