I am lonely because I am ashamed of some of the things I have done. This shame creates anxiety in me. The anxiety I live with makes it difficult to form intimate relationships. I'm not sure if anyone else can relate to this feeling... If you are lonely right now I encourage you try and make your ethical values and actions line up properly. That is the mistake I made a long time ago. My actions were hedonistic and my ethics are more virtue and principle based. It is very difficult to live a life that is properly aligned. We all have an internal battle to fight. I hope this was helpful to someone. Good luck to you.