Over recent weeks and months I have been focussing on abstaining from PMO by visiting this site and others. I have been trying to exercise and read wisdom literature every day. I have also been quite regularly journalling about my thoughts and insights as they arise. One of the interesting things that happens is a gradually deepening of understanding about why I fap. I can increasingly see that I suffer from anxiety and I have for the longest time used PMO as a way of self medicating. This is quite a profound insight for me. I suffer from anxiety about all sorts of things. This morning I received a vm message about some paper work I have not done. I felt a shape pain of anxiety and even now I have not listened to the message. In all reality it will be the simplest thing to resolve, yet I put my head in the sand and hope that it will go away. I found then that during the afternoon I was feeling triggered and now I can perhaps see that underlying anxiety is part of the reason. I similarly feel anxiety about personal conflicts at work, personal financial management and a range of pretty mundane issues. Almost always, when I muster the necessary courage, they are simple problems to resolve. So, I can see that learning ways of managing anxiety better is a crucial part of managing my PMO habits. I would be very interested to hear from others about your experiences with anxiety. Do you have similar bouts of anxiety as me? Has PMO been a means of self-medication for you? How have you sought to deal with anxiety better?