My secret has come to an end. My wife left the apartment to pick up a computer charger she left at work. I did not expect her to make it home so quickly and I jumped so high when she opened that door while I was masterbating. Finally, it feels good to be caught. I cannot do this alone. My only regret is that I was not man enough to tell her before it escalated to this. I was going to try and cure this on my own and tell her when the issue was fixed. On my own I had over 10 years to fix it. I had my chance. Chance of doing this alone showed me it is impossible to get over this addiction alone. The truth is, is that my wife already suspected something and she is so relieved. She is relieved that she was not going crazy. She knew that something always got in the way of our intimacy. Now we have every night where I will tell her how things are going, what she needs from me, and promise I will call her when the urges start coming up during the day. I am so curious how fighting this addiction will be different now that I know I have my wife as a partner. I feel that eventually no matter how difficult in marriage this addiction is to share with our significant others that transparency has to happen. For me I hate that I was a coward. So happy however that I got caught. Really hoping this is a giant step to get the help I need in being the husband I was meant to be.