The Self-Destruct Button

Good question. I feel as if I suffer from a similar ailment. Somehow the discipline and desire to be free must outweigh the fleshly lust

 

This is the worst of the worst addictions, its free, it gives you a insane amount of pleasure, but like any drug with a price to pay. My main motivation is knowing that PMO is a sin, that itself gives me a huge motivation to say no to it, otherwise i would only be thinking on the physical and mental consequences but that was not strong enough to stop me, as any drug addict, its always worth suffering for that quick pleasure right? Wish you a lot of strength brother.

 

I think you have to want it more than PMO. Put a clear picture of what you want to be into focus. Write about it make it really real. Then make that your new obsession. That might be enough to overcome your mind wanting the urge.
I am doing this exercise now.

 

I can totally relate to this. Like I accidentally bumped into an auto-destruct button, and then the neural network goes right into the same pattern and no amount of memorizing, exercising, meditation, inner dialogue, pros/cons, etc. works anymore. All that information is disregarded by the auto-destruct sequence until I'm done PMO'ing, then all that information pours in with regret.

 

I am agree too, the brain act in that form and that is the moment we have to say him

 

So this is the bitch of withdrawal. The 2-3 mark is the absolute worse. It’s when the brain goes the most haywire. I could always make it about two weeks and then boom relapse. So you just have to push past that point. By the time you get to 6 weeks it eases up significantly.

 

I've felt "paralyzed" with that dialogue myself many times. It's like I'm just stuck in my bed, unable to act unless it is to go to my PC to PMO (or do other bad habits). My advice would be, if you ABSOLUTELY are going to relapse, then postpone it. Tell yourself: "Ok, I'll go PMO, but first I'll do this one thing", and you make that one thing something that is going to take any amount of time, and the longer and more engaging the better, but the real point is you might just teach yourself that you can hold on to your streak a little longer. And also, you may be able to push off temptation far enough by doing that thing that your mental state will be different, thus allowing you to reconsider your situation. Just don't make that thing you do before a hard thing. If it's too hard, maybe you wont follow through with it.

Just my 2 cents, good luck.

 

Wtf I can relate to this.
Exactly after 30 days my brain riots and I relapse.
This happened 3 times this year. 3 streaks and each streak I relapsed after exactly 30 days.
I am yet in week 3 and I swear this time I will break the legs pf this addiction.
It feels like if I conquer this plateau, I will leave the hardest part behind and start healing.
I recommend cold shower. This will kill your arousal and boner instant.
Don’t play with yourself also not when you are under the shower. Cold shower asap when you reach this plateau