hi! my first post here, don't know if this has been discussed before, but i found this conceptual synthesis to be a life changer in NoFap! you aren’t horny; you’re just feeling masculine. — my life-changing discovery! it’s worth a read, but you can ignore the next four paragraphs if you just want to get to the meat of the matter. we have heard so much do’s and don’ts for success in NoFap on this forum, but what has been lacking (perhaps just for me and a handful of more analytical / less pragmatic people) has been an understanding of our inner world and where and how it has gone wrong and how to fix it. understanding the mechanisms of rebooting on a scientific level, has nothing to do with integrating it into your personality. just like one can read all about hormones and neural pathways that create love, but still love foolishly and unwisely, or never understand it because he/she never experienced it first hand. what most of us with single digit streaks do, is convince ourselves of the benefits of NoFap, still secretly doubt that it will be that amazing at a gut level, and put ourselves under a test of faith with every urge that tries to convince us: “just this once!” we don’t know what it really is like to achieve a 100+ days streak, and we fail too often too soon to ever get a chance to see the awesome life that awaits us. we need to see it, feel it, live it ourselves, have our personalities changed, for that idea of being disgusted by our own relapses to actually manifest itself in our actions. a taste of a positive sexual energy— and i have found method to experience just that! so about a week ago, i was meditating on my urges in the shower, trying to come to terms with the fact that there’s no one time cure for addiction and i just have to endure the urges for a long time. i was accepting that this is a state in which i will spend much time, and that if i want to stop fapping once and for all, i need to accept and embrace this “feelings” i looked down at my junk and noticed it was soft. how can i be horny and yet flaccid? my first thought was “maybe the sexual images manifesting in my subconscious haven’t reached my dick yet” but something about that statement felt wrong. how do you know it’s sexual if your dick is unaffected? all you’re imagining (or all your subconscious is imagining FOR you,) is a feminine shape. i meditated a bit more on this urge. relaxing my body completely, letting the warm water wash over me, as i opened my mind to this “urge” and tried not to resist or act upon it — to just breathe through it. — then it dawned on me: i’m just feeling masculine! i tried putting it into words: “the image in my head is a feminine form, accompanying it, a desire for being dominated. a certain submissiveness. and in contrast to that, i feel myself to be masculine, accompanied by a desire to dominate, and to show care for the submissive feminine energy in front of me.” i immediately felt that i no longer want to fap as a response to that urge, i wanted rather to squeeze an actual girl in my arms. i didn’t want to put my hand around my dick, i wanted to grab a girl’s butt. i closed my eyes and started breathing heavy, grabbed onto a pipe sticking out the wall and squeezed it, feeling my body from within; i just wanted to feel masculine... no! i just wanted this feeling of masculinity that was already in me to intensify. i got out of the shower as soon as i could, carrying that masculine feeling outside with me. i noticed i was standing tall and with sharp focused eyes. i went over to my dumbbells and had one of the best workouts i had! it seemed to satisfy that masculine urge, and it slowly faded, giving way to a desire for rest. (a more or less feminine desire) this was a success, so i went to sleep happy, eager to put it to test for the next day. i woke up, like usual, with a raging hard on and a desire to browse instagram while still in bed. but i remembered: wait a second! i’m just desiring for a feminine body — to contrast it to my own masculinity. i got up with a burning desire to explore a girl and feel her body, but i had zero interest in having my dick stuck in anything. that’s when i knew i had made a ground breaking discovery: i had learnt to transmute my sexual energy, by dividing it into a positive desire for dominance, and a negative one in form of a lack of being; femininity was found wanting in my life. it’s been 7 days and i have experimented with this a lot. i no longer have “urges” for masturbation, only urges for asserting dominance. when i see a hot girl, i no longer think like a misserable wanker who is ashamed of his masculine desires, because my masculine desires aren’t perverted, instead i feel like my body is working with me, and supporting me with masculine energy that not only increases my confidence, but aligns my subconscious with the feminine body language in a way that i naturally respond well to social cues. if you think about it in these terms, all the “superpowers” that people on this forum and the subreddit talk about, suddenly make intuitive sense! and they're no longer 100+ days away from you; certainly the potency of masculine energy grows with time, but you have the power to feel like an alpha male whenever you naturally get “urges” — key word being naturally. i tried evoking the urges by watching porn, i didn’t relapse but it didn’t work. i might explain in a later post.