For the past 7 days I’ve been going strong without PMO, the problem is 3 days ago I was getting flashbacks of when I did some not so good things. When I first turned 17 i had a 39 day streak going until a sudden urge hit me. But it was different, I wanted something different. The different thing I wanted was gay porn. But I was straight and I had mixed emotions about the situation.I watched a little bit of it and was disgusted, so I turned to a gay hookup app called GRINDR. While I was on there the dopamine rush was super high but after I talked with guys and received dick pics I felt ashamed and always deleted the app right after. This has happened several times before and some times I even sent nudes. Keep in mind I just had turned 17 and I still am and it was very illegal. So the last couple of days I was getting flashbacks of all the dumb stuff I did and it has been getting me into a depressed mood. I feel ashamed and guilty because of what I have done. Even today I was horny and wanted to go on the app, but I didn’t I stayed strong and stopped, I did mess up by seeing a dick pic when I searched the word “ Grindr “ on google but that was it. I pushed myself not to do the stupid stuff again. But I still don’t know how to get over the shame of doing these dumb things. I always tell myself that I’m human and I make mistakes and sometimes you don’t realize what your doing and it feels like you're losing control. It makes me feel a bit better. But I still can’t get over it. I’m a straight male but I’m having weird tendencies that I don’t even like in the first place. What have you guys done to rid yourself of mental images, shame and guilt for stuff you guys have done and how did you get over it. Any feedback is great!!