THE STAR TREK CHALLENGE!

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by AtomicTango, Jul 18, 2021.

  1. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Haha, I'll definitely have to try being more aggressive in my approach. Thanks.

    Thanks. Number 2 and 4 especially are things I know work for me. I just sometimes dont do them when urges hit. Relapse becomes a foregone conclusion in my brain before I've even done anything, and by the time I do something, I dont want to, but I still do.

    Thanks. I actually have private browsing disabled on a system level for Chrome but I cant seem to get it to work for Edge, (a browser I cannot get rid of without risking the stability of the laptop.) It worked for a bit and now I cant seem to get it to work again.
     
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  2. Revanthegrey

    Revanthegrey Fapstronaut

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    A great urge appears on the middle of the night , holy !
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  3. Intonator

    Intonator Fapstronaut

    Day 20 complete.
     
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  4. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Day 3 of relapsing. What the fuck is wrong with me. What happened to the guy who got to 100+ days 3 times? Trying again.

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  5. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Gonna start posting more journalish stuff here. Hopeful others will do the same so we can all help each other out. I'll go first.

    When I'm done with PMO, one of the first things I notice is how ugly a lot of porn stars are. Seriously. I'd recommend you go look, (obviously don't lol) but you get the idea. So the attractiveness of the woman is clearly not the appeal.

    Is it the content? Getting warmer I think. I escalate quickly from vanilla into fetish because the fetish provides something vanilla doesnt. I realised a while back that this was a lack of control. My brain seems to enjoy letting go and focusing only on the porn, despite me knowing it's bad. This is why I am most urged when stressed or depressed or anxious - these stresses, depressions and anxieties being caused by problems I cannot easily wish away. When I first realised I was addicted to porn, I was addicted to it because it was porn, but now it's transformed into me being addicted not to porn itself, but to the way it functions as a coping mechanism.

    Here's the other side of the coin though. PMO serves as self sabotage for me, maybe even a form of self harm. When I relapse, I relapse to excess, until I am drained and groggy and feel awful for days. This is almost a punishment I inflict upon myself for failure. The irony is, the punishment is not a deterrent, and never really was. If anything it just makes me want to relapse even more, to stay within the holding pattern of cyclical relapse so I forget what feeling normal actually feels like.

    So how can I solve this issue? Well as others have stated, by trying to cope in better ways. Even playing videogames makes more sense than PMO. By watching TV, reading, doing literally anything else. Eliminating the situations where relapse is likely. Most crucially though, by getting back to basics, to understand that simply abstaining wont do much unless I try to address why I want to consciously sabotage myself to start with.
     
  6. modern milarepa

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  7. Vanquisher12

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  8. KellticJK

    KellticJK Fapstronaut

    Got ahead of myself, today is day 3 -.-
     
  9. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Day 1. Few sexual urges but the compulsion to keep the relapses going was there. I pushed past this compulsion.
     
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  10. Intonator

    Intonator Fapstronaut

    Day 21 complete.
     
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  11. KellticJK

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  12. Vanquisher12

    Vanquisher12 Fapstronaut

    Behaved dreadfully yesterday, allowed myself to be tempted by porn for a couple of half an hour stints and almost masturbated to orgasm but escaped that at the last minute. Had to reset my counter after that, but here's hoping I do better this time
     
  13. Intonator

    Intonator Fapstronaut

    Day 22 complete.
     
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  14. KellticJK

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  15. Vanquisher12

    Vanquisher12 Fapstronaut

    Day 1 completed, back to dodgy civvie clothes
     
  16. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

  17. a nerd

    a nerd Fapstronaut

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    does anyone have any idea about what is tribal mode ??
    Also i ask you to visit the wikipedia page of nofap and see what all have they written about us , and the great garry wilson. honestly they will go to such great extends to proof us wrong .....anyways since we have acknoweldged this as a problem we are trying to remove it from our lives , whereas those delusional scientists(all of them want scientific records and results) have accepted the 'deal' to ruin their lives for minute pleasures .
     
  18. Onan the Barbarian

    Onan the Barbarian Fapstronaut

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    Lieutenant Onan, reporting, sir!
     
  19. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    I'm sorry but I dont really know what you are referring to with tribal mode.
     
  20. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Day 3. Just finished my rewatch of DS9. What are your opinions on DS9?
     

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