THE STAR TREK CHALLENGE!

An unfortunate reset on day 1 (or technically 2 I guess.) Not good enough.

I was going to use the excuse that I was stressed because of a hospital appointment I had, so I got urged. While all that is true, it's also bullshit. If I keep allowing myself a free pass to reset when I get even a tiny bit stressed, I'll never get past a week. If I were getting a month in or something and it was happening, then I could accept it. But 2 days, 1 week, 10 days, these numbers are not good enough and I'm not happy with them. Come on, stop fucking around. COME ON.

 

A reset is when you PMO once. A relapse is when you fall into old behaviours and do it on more than one occasion. If you didn't PMO, it isnt a relapse.

 

Glad to hear you seem to be doing ok.

 

Sorry to hear that, 18 days is a good effort but you can do even better.

 

Welcome aboard!

 

I think I forgot to update my counter lol, maybe it's just lagging. Either way, a civilian again.

 

Day 3. Feels like an eternity. I keep having sexual dreams where my brain trolls me, not kidding. The dream usually starts off innocent enough. Then it gets sexual. Then, just before anything really happens, the tone of the dream changes and I wake up feeling like I just edged for 2 hours. Very annoying.

 

Nearly onto day 4. Still incredibly urged, way more than I normally might be at this time. Feel like I could start clawing at the walls. Typing this up to distract me for a minute or two.