The START 2021 STRONGER Challenge [CLOSED]

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  1. _Just_For_PRJ_

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    I am having huge intense urges now...
    Feels like CRAP, my online class is going on and I guess I am again punched in face by flatline. I am getting confused. Not able to focus
    I just came here ASAP. My class is going on so I have access to everything what should I do now.
     
  2. Steppingintotheunkown

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    I relapsed this morning. Gutted.
     
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  3. BrohkenCompass

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    Possibly just pound out a 15 minute interval training circuit at home or the gym? Go hard on some calisthenics and get that heart pumping.
     
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  4. BrohkenCompass

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    Dang. We're sorry to hear that. I hope you can get up quickly, assess that situation, and remove as many obstacles as possible to keep it from being a multi event / multi day thing.

    Be aware. Be committed. Be smart.

    Don't be afraid to tell your story in your journal or here. I find that talking/typing through it has some good opportunity for me to calm down, see the problem more clearly and refocus on my target.

    Wishing you Strength.

    BC
     
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  5. BrohkenCompass

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    Deep breath. Read my previous reply and I saw you hit the like button already.

    Relapse IS a part of recovering. Learn something from it and you're better tomorrow than today to handle this.
     
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  6. Brahmacharya_UK

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    I know that this urge will seem all powerful and all consuming.... But trust me on this, the more you exercise control over it, the less Power it will have over you.

    You must show it who is the boss.

    This too will pass. On this journey you will have Good days , Bad days and every where in between.

    I'm supposed to be working a 12 step program around this stuff, and I very resistant to start this process, But that's my addiction trying to run the show.

    Understand that there are two components in this process, you and the addiction. As long as the you is at least trying to control over the addiction, and not letting it be the other way round.

    Stay strong, we need you in the upper echelons for the combined recovery of the group, and you need the streak to help you with your studies.

    some distraction and brain fog is going to be normal. It will pass!

     
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  7. BrohkenCompass

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    Removing these members who now have deleted accounts:

    @TNax
    @heX10
     
  8. The urges have increased, all the women on the street are attractive to me.
    All of this is annoying to me, I feel that more than attraction I am thinking desperately, I am also seeing women only as something sexual.

    All this could be the consequence of all the porn consumption. I need to detox my mind but I don't know how.
     
  9. espresso18

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    Day 10 today.

    Got an affirmation from a friend that spoke of the importance of listening to truth being told to me about myself that makes me uncomfortable. This is the the way to change, and new experiences.

    Happy Friday,
    Tim
     
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  10. gegenavenger

    gegenavenger Fapstronaut

    I think time and patience will help you on that front. Stay patient, give your brain the time it needs to heal(rewire), and stick to your plan on this forum. Over time things will get better, you cant make the process go any faster, so dont stress it.
     
  11. gegenavenger

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    Checking in for another day.
     
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  12. Dragydof

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    Ah never tried this. Let's give it a go. Thanks!
     
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  13. gegenavenger

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    The self rewarding system works for some people, try it. I will also try implementing something similar.
     
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  14. BrohkenCompass

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    As we near Friday night, and the weekend remind yourself firmly of what you want (and don't want) in your life this weekend. Do not let free time, boredom, etc to be an excuse for those urges to best you. Fight...
     
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  15. Steppingintotheunkown

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    It's a pathetic story but here goes. I was able to disable my blocker on my device, I went straight to my specific chatroom drug of choice, I relapsed straight away. I didn't even get so far into starting a conversation with someone. The next few hours after that I binged in the chatroom, then viewed porn for about 2 minutes, then I felt utterly repulsed and very low. I went out, brought a cheap preowned phone which has child settings, gave it to a family member and they have the passcodes and account set up in their name, they control everything, I can only go on specific sites and apps which they have allowed. Iv never done anything like that before, Iv always had control over my internet blockers because Iv been to ashamed to admit to people I need help. But I have to let someone else now stop me from accessing this stuff. After 6 years I now finally admit that I need someone to set passcodes for me on my devices. Iv learnt a huge lesson today.
     
  16. Steppingintotheunkown

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    Something caused me to feel stressed the night before and I was to much in my head instead of letting go and just breathing and praying. I woke up feeling stressed and immediately I went about trying to disable my blocker on my phone like some kind of mad man. Me feeling stressed has caused me to relapse a lot over the years. But you know something? Iv never given journaling a fair chance. I'm going to begin incorporating journaling into my morning routine. I think I may have learnt another lesson. If I had just journaled this morning and put my thoughts onto paper I probably wouldn't have relapsed
     
  17. Dragydof

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    Chaser effect got me.

    I have learned to cope with sadness and anger, those wont cause me to relapse anymore. I haven't learned to deal with stress however, so got to figure that out. Today I relapsed as well.

    The bad thing is. I'm not feeling bad about relapsing, just about having to tell you guys. I feel ashamed for relapsing two days in a row. Not because I feel bad about the relapse but more because of what you guys would think of it. I want to be honest tho so I have to tell you.
     
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  18. gegenavenger

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    I think admitting to the addiction has a big part to play in the recovery process @Steppingintotheunkown . You have done the right thing, all i can say is that stay strong and keep fighting it, its a long process and everyone has to make multiple attemps in order to succeed. Keep Fighting. We all are here for you as well.
     
  19. Steppingintotheunkown

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    I will never give up. Thanks bro
     

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