The start of my journey...

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Philip_ZA, Jan 20, 2017.

  1. Philip_ZA

    Philip_ZA Fapstronaut

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    Im writing this on the evening of my first 17 days. This is first time in probably 6 years ive made a conscious effort to abstain from any form of porn or masturbation. Dont think its even necessary to mention what a roller coaster the past few days have been. The first 2 weeks id say was the easy part for me, with the new year and everything busy between work and study, so i could easily forget about everything and just live. But then things got real and i realized with a shock that this would probably be one of the most difficult things i could do. Suddenly it was as if my head, heart and flesh were all pulling is different directions witch led to loads of mixed feelings.

    I wont sugarcoat it... this is hard! Actively working to change something that's become a second nature and normal feels impossible. Everything in me is screaming to relapse even though i know how damaging it is... i discovered this damage during the past 17 days.

    Through all the difficulties and struggles i do have hope! From what ive experienced in this short time i know that this will be life changing. Ive started to feel alive again even if its just the confidence gained through the silent victory of another day without falling into the old habit. Ive started focusing on other aspects of my life like prayer, bible study, health and relationships and in all of these i feel like im finally started to give them the attention they deserve.

    Im glad for the hardships and the struggles for it only shows how big problem this is in my life but then again... i have hope and if i can do the first 17 days the next will also be possible!

    Philip, 28, RSA
     
  2. AndySky180

    AndySky180 Fapstronaut

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    great introduction! I wish you all the best for the journey ahead. Cheers!
     
  3. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and not judge you.

    CONGRATULATIONS ON DAY 17!!!!

    I would suggest joining the group Christian Fapstronauts who will encourage you through prayer and scripture.

    What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
     
  4. Shin Iu

    Shin Iu Fapstronaut

  5. Mattsfreedom

    Mattsfreedom Fapstronaut

    17 days is a great start! :D Welcome to the site.
     
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  6. Philip_ZA

    Philip_ZA Fapstronaut

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    Thank you very much Andy, i appreciate it!
     
  7. Philip_ZA

    Philip_ZA Fapstronaut

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    Thank you very much! Ive already joined the Christian group.

    At the moment im taking it one day at a time. I think its important to not approach this whole challenge in its entirety but to break it down to small battles and victories. In the past few days ive also started to catch up on projects ive been neglecting so it helps to keep my mind busy. This forum is also a great help, just reading the testimonies and experiencing the fellowship helps a lot.

    Its great to finally know that there are others with the same struggles who i can call on at any time
     
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  8. Philip_ZA

    Philip_ZA Fapstronaut

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    Thank you very much!
     
  9. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

  10. Covert

    Covert Fapstronaut

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    Congratulation on this amazing streak, its good to hear about your change and accomplishments and all other positive things you are focussing. Keep up the great work and keep us posted so that we can be enlightened.
     
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  11. Ayjaydubya

    Ayjaydubya Fapstronaut

    Sometimes it's better to take it one breath at a time, a whole day can be too much! Welcome to NoFap. I hope you find the community helpful. I'm relatively new, but it has already been a big help for me.
     
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