dr_persistent
Fapstronaut
First to say hello to everyone on this site and to everyone who is reading this post at the moment. 3-4 years ago, I have posted a success story, please read it before you read this, otherwise reading this has not much sense.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/5-years-struggle-severe-hocd-transexual-porn.129195/
I haven't been on this or any other site like this for a while. I don't need this anymore, but I come here today just too see if I have any messages and I was shocked. So many of you need help, and you deserve help. This problem is becoming more serious every day. Also, I promised to some good people from this community that I will post my progress (hello to you guys, hope you are all fine) .
Maybe this post won't be of some special help, but maybe it's not waste of time if you lack some motivation in your life.
Fast forward, I am 27 at the moment and I am feeling great. I finished my college (mechanical engineering, second degree). I have my own company with 15 employees. I still have my beautiful girlfriend. I do a lot of sports. My body looks great. I bought myself a sport car (it was always my dream). Me and my girlfriend moved in the apartment together. It isn't big but still, I am very happy with it. I stopped hanging with some people. A year ago I found 2 quotes on pinterest, and they say: you don't have time to hang out with people who aren't inspiring you. The other quote says: if you can't build with them, don't drink with them. I was thinking a lot about these quotes. You should also.
I wouldn't talk about it, but I know that some would ask, probably me too. My sexual life is normal. We can have sex whenever we want, there isn't any lack of libido, mo ed, pied........
Also important HOCD. This thing guys.......
I wish with all my heart for all of you to realise how much stupid it is. It is so stupid that I can't find a word in my dictionary to describe it. So to answer, does it hit me sometimes? Yes it does. Does it have any impact on me? No it does not. How long it lasts? About 5 seconds.
So it isn't worth of mentioning.
I will tell you this guys. Something about getting arousal by watching some fucked up porn.
A LOT OF YOU GUYS HAVE PROBLEMS WITH READING DENIAL STORIES, LIVING IN A CLOSET STORIES......
First what I want you to realise, no matter what you read about being in a closet, denial or whatever it is so stupid. Trust me. You are born straight, you can't become gay. Whatever you do you can't become gay. You can easily fuck a male and would you believe me if I say that you are still not gay? Maybe you don't believe me but it is true.
After you realise this, things can become much easier.
I understand that you are very confused. It is normal. Just try to think in this way, your brain doesn't understand what sexual orientation means. He also doesn't know what type of porn are you watching and does this type of porn fits in your sexual orientation. Your brain knows ONLY FOR LEVELS OF DOPAMINE.
Vanilla sex = no dopamine (probably no erection).
transwoman = a lot of dopamine (hard erections)
Gay = a lot of dopamine (hard erections)
Please try to understand this. I understand that many of you guys are very intelligent human beings and this is why I am helping you because I know that you can understand something more complicated and that 2+2 can really be 5.
Your brain doesn't know if you watch sensual passionate porn with man and female or you are watching transwoman porn. Your brain is used to hardcore stuff because you were raising the boundaries over the years. I guess that transwoman porn wasn't the first porn you guys have ever watched, right? On the other hand there is your heart. Deep inside you KNOW that you like girls but you don't feel it. You don't feel it because your brain is confused and sick and like I said, you need cleaning and I won't lie, you need a lot of cleaning and that won't be easy to achieve. A lot of effort and work must be put into action to achieve changes.
On internet, you can see milions of top models naked in one hour of browsing the Internet.
My friends, do you know how successful you have to be to lay down in bed with a top model? Only one, not a million. You have to be very successful. Smart, intelligent, working on yourself, good clothing, enough of money, funny, not creepy, brave, talkative, charming, charismatic.......
I am telling you this because I know this now, because now I am that kind of person (without any lies).
6 years ago, I was walking dead. My dick was dead, couldn't achieve erection, no girlfriend, no money, living with my parents, stucked in college, zero passed exams, no car, nothing. Just me and my computer and porn. Whole day long. It took me about 7 years to become completely new person. Do you now understand why I am writing you so long post? People are always asking me how long till they are porn free... Hmmmm about few years...... and then they say I am crazy. I don't know who you are, I don't know where are you from. I only know your excuses to not become successful. Please stand in front of your mirror. Imagine that you are some high level girl, would you date yourself at the moment?
So please start changing you life from this second. The smallest thing you can do is to quit with: porn, tv, netflix, youtube, pc, tv, phone. Start doing productive things. Stop living lifes of other people.
Fuck todays influencers, youtubers...
Become someone. Write your own story.
Since I'm not a hypocrite, I have to be honest with you guys. I am also not a robot. I failed a million times. Sooner or later, we all fail (in every aspects of your life), but the goal is to learn something from it. If you fail and you don't learn anything, that's not good. And to be more honest, I am drinking some pills for my anxiety, I have gad (general anxiety disorder). To be honest, I don't have any withdrawals and they really help me.
I am here to answer your questions if you have them. And remember, thoughts are ONLY thoughts.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/5-years-struggle-severe-hocd-transexual-porn.129195/
I haven't been on this or any other site like this for a while. I don't need this anymore, but I come here today just too see if I have any messages and I was shocked. So many of you need help, and you deserve help. This problem is becoming more serious every day. Also, I promised to some good people from this community that I will post my progress (hello to you guys, hope you are all fine) .
Maybe this post won't be of some special help, but maybe it's not waste of time if you lack some motivation in your life.
Fast forward, I am 27 at the moment and I am feeling great. I finished my college (mechanical engineering, second degree). I have my own company with 15 employees. I still have my beautiful girlfriend. I do a lot of sports. My body looks great. I bought myself a sport car (it was always my dream). Me and my girlfriend moved in the apartment together. It isn't big but still, I am very happy with it. I stopped hanging with some people. A year ago I found 2 quotes on pinterest, and they say: you don't have time to hang out with people who aren't inspiring you. The other quote says: if you can't build with them, don't drink with them. I was thinking a lot about these quotes. You should also.
I wouldn't talk about it, but I know that some would ask, probably me too. My sexual life is normal. We can have sex whenever we want, there isn't any lack of libido, mo ed, pied........
Also important HOCD. This thing guys.......
I wish with all my heart for all of you to realise how much stupid it is. It is so stupid that I can't find a word in my dictionary to describe it. So to answer, does it hit me sometimes? Yes it does. Does it have any impact on me? No it does not. How long it lasts? About 5 seconds.
So it isn't worth of mentioning.
I will tell you this guys. Something about getting arousal by watching some fucked up porn.
A LOT OF YOU GUYS HAVE PROBLEMS WITH READING DENIAL STORIES, LIVING IN A CLOSET STORIES......
First what I want you to realise, no matter what you read about being in a closet, denial or whatever it is so stupid. Trust me. You are born straight, you can't become gay. Whatever you do you can't become gay. You can easily fuck a male and would you believe me if I say that you are still not gay? Maybe you don't believe me but it is true.
After you realise this, things can become much easier.
I understand that you are very confused. It is normal. Just try to think in this way, your brain doesn't understand what sexual orientation means. He also doesn't know what type of porn are you watching and does this type of porn fits in your sexual orientation. Your brain knows ONLY FOR LEVELS OF DOPAMINE.
Vanilla sex = no dopamine (probably no erection).
transwoman = a lot of dopamine (hard erections)
Gay = a lot of dopamine (hard erections)
Please try to understand this. I understand that many of you guys are very intelligent human beings and this is why I am helping you because I know that you can understand something more complicated and that 2+2 can really be 5.
Your brain doesn't know if you watch sensual passionate porn with man and female or you are watching transwoman porn. Your brain is used to hardcore stuff because you were raising the boundaries over the years. I guess that transwoman porn wasn't the first porn you guys have ever watched, right? On the other hand there is your heart. Deep inside you KNOW that you like girls but you don't feel it. You don't feel it because your brain is confused and sick and like I said, you need cleaning and I won't lie, you need a lot of cleaning and that won't be easy to achieve. A lot of effort and work must be put into action to achieve changes.
On internet, you can see milions of top models naked in one hour of browsing the Internet.
My friends, do you know how successful you have to be to lay down in bed with a top model? Only one, not a million. You have to be very successful. Smart, intelligent, working on yourself, good clothing, enough of money, funny, not creepy, brave, talkative, charming, charismatic.......
I am telling you this because I know this now, because now I am that kind of person (without any lies).
6 years ago, I was walking dead. My dick was dead, couldn't achieve erection, no girlfriend, no money, living with my parents, stucked in college, zero passed exams, no car, nothing. Just me and my computer and porn. Whole day long. It took me about 7 years to become completely new person. Do you now understand why I am writing you so long post? People are always asking me how long till they are porn free... Hmmmm about few years...... and then they say I am crazy. I don't know who you are, I don't know where are you from. I only know your excuses to not become successful. Please stand in front of your mirror. Imagine that you are some high level girl, would you date yourself at the moment?
So please start changing you life from this second. The smallest thing you can do is to quit with: porn, tv, netflix, youtube, pc, tv, phone. Start doing productive things. Stop living lifes of other people.
Fuck todays influencers, youtubers...
Become someone. Write your own story.
Since I'm not a hypocrite, I have to be honest with you guys. I am also not a robot. I failed a million times. Sooner or later, we all fail (in every aspects of your life), but the goal is to learn something from it. If you fail and you don't learn anything, that's not good. And to be more honest, I am drinking some pills for my anxiety, I have gad (general anxiety disorder). To be honest, I don't have any withdrawals and they really help me.
I am here to answer your questions if you have them. And remember, thoughts are ONLY thoughts.
