The story continues. Light and the end of the tunnel with ocd and nofap

Hi guys,

This is my second attempt at a long streak and im currently on day 57( i don't always check the date)
I keep a counter , i look maybe once every to weeks.
The more you look the more difficult nofap gets.

My previous story (background is here)
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/a-short-dark-ocd-story-with-hope.91784/

So i had some difficult weeks.
Some days were great, others were awefull but after many year suffering from ocd i knew better than to give in.
I told myself in the harshest of moments, c'mon tomorrow is an other day, nofap will benefit me in the long run. Remember last year? You have never felt so alive in years.
Is that not worth fightning for?
In my most scary and vulnerable moments i kept my wits together and learned to let go of it.
Learning to accept the fact you can't controll everything in life is a difficult thing, but once you apply that way of thinking to every bad moment, it changes you.


What i've done
Every morning i took a warm shower and ended it with a cold 2 minute shower to relieve my body of stress.
I changed my zoloft from taking it in the morning to taking it a few hours before i sleep.
When i lie in bed, i listen to inspirational Ted talks on youtube (keeping the phone screen down as not to awake my brain)
I cut down on sugar. I drank 2-3 litres of coke a day, combined with other sugars.
And i kept myself occupied, making social contacts.

Results
The cold showers made my stress level drop significantely.
It makes my brain awake. This resulted in ocd dropping because it is stronger when you're tired.

Taking zoloft in the evening makes me far less drowsy (like 10x) , gives me more energy during the day and also affects ocd because again the mind is awake. Making it easier to let go of fear.

The Ted talks inspire me to be a different man, to see the good in people, and in myself and to embrace my male and feminine traits. I don't have to prove i'm a guy, i don't need to show that i'm tough because being though means showing all yourself. And the louder a dog barks the less dangerous it is.
Accepting yourself as a person and not judging everything you do, think and so on gives you more freedom.

The sugar! I still consume a lot, i have tremblings because i want coke(cola)
And somethimes a binge, however a get some syriup instead and mix it with water.
Its still a sugary drink but far less compared to soda's.
This gives me a more relaxed state/

My vivid dreams now contain lot's of sex. And the one's i like. However most of them are still porn induced (threesome's,very slutty girls and so on) I feel like a get wet dreams but when i look down no wet briefs! Great!

So far so good i'll repost when i'm further down the line.

Guys this works, don't let annyone tell you otherwise!
If you are skeptical (as i once was) find out for yourselves! You have nothing to lose!

Regards and best of luck

Urtarget1992