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the story to inspire you to change,to all of my brothers here

Discussion in 'Self Improvement' started by Thrices, Aug 1, 2016.

  1. Thrices

    Thrices Fapstronaut

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    i write this being quite emotional,with a sad song playing in my mind
    im going to share my story of defeat,i ws born in northern india,my dad ws a boxer so he put me to play criclet,i loved it.it ws a new life to me,i thought if i can pull this,id be a great personality.3 years in,i became one of the best fr my age their was,my coach said ud represent india smtime in the future,but smtimes love brings curse,my fellow player once brought to the park a book,full of nude images,i didnt knw wt it ws,tryna act like a friend and a man,i sat with him looking at thm.i payed absolutely no attention to the book.it ws only fr my friend's company.anyways,later,another friend of mine took me to a cafe,he took a seat in a corner ,seat for two,he started surfing porno,showing me sm nude pictures.i thought thts wt boys do,i shld like it.alright,my mom didnt let me go wth him again,she thought he wsnt a good guy.

    i wld cm frm school ,in washroom one day,jst accidently,felt smthng in my private part,ofcaurse started rubbing it,had no idea wt tht white stuff was.id do it everyday after school,stamina?1/2 hour and i wldnt cum.later,we bought a computr,i being an aggressive teen in 14's already about 6 feet tall.i typed sm dirty things,and started enjoyin my time...my cricket ws going good but suddenly abt 6 mnths in,i started feeling not to play cricket,like too sensitive,no more the strengh or power to bowl at 80kmph,pretty fast fr my age.trials came in ,and i gave up cricket,got too nervous,coach critisised me,my dad did,they had no idea why i wld pull out at the time most important.i started not going to park anymore,feeling weak and anxious.my dad wld forcefully drive me to the park where i wld spend my next 2-3 hours with no focus or desire,i cld see myself feel skinny and weak.my fellow players went on to play districts,and in abt 3 mnths i gave up totally wth the excuse tht i ws having hard time studying,it ws a lie to keep at home.

    years in and i kept doin it thinkin it ws ok,although i wld feel so very weak after ejaculation.my classmates at school wld say its ok to do it tht they do it too.i increased on the stuff...years passed and im in high school,in to boys,grown up,and im a skinny but tall basturd,verbally bullied everyday,i got social anxiety,everyday school became a struggle,i became stupid,more stupid.

    i grew my passion fr wrestling,and into college,but i gave trials for cricket where i sucked now,ofcaurse i failed.for wrestling i cld do nthn coz i had not enough guts to go to the nearby wrestlin school.here i am sitting in my room,typing all this stuff of how i destroyed myself,how i turned into a pussy,my dad thinks im a coward,he dsnt understand social anxiety,my mom's no more,my younger brother thinks i suck.no job ,nothing,i dnt evn go out of my house a single minute somedays....if smone of u,is smwhere in earlier stage,improve,try,work hard but improve,im starting my journey nw to a better me.we all will... thanks im goin to maybe canada this year fr exposing myself into the world to help me improve.i got on heavy medication after i destroyed my penile nerves and muscles as i faced many problems,im ok now,best of luck to u all,masturbation or porn is not natural,its the curse of technology with all its benefits.sex dsnt make u tht weak or tired,try it out its way better thn rubbing urself virtually like sm animal and a duffer.be well my day 1 to improvement after sm relapses,bt they r a part of trying to improve
     
  2. INSANE SMART WARRIOR

    INSANE SMART WARRIOR Fapstronaut

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    Hey,
    I feel that you have gone through a lot of pain, you are strong boy because only brave person can decide to change, decide to improve himself. You are on right track bro keep going forward but remember one thing keep fighting and failure is normal in your journey just get up when you fail and Learn from it as you said in your post " my day 1 to improvement after sm relapses,bt they r a part of trying to improve".
     
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  3. Thrices

    Thrices Fapstronaut

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    we fell together.dammit!
     

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