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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Invincible Under The Sun, Mar 11, 2019.
Day 2 done Checking in
Keep it up everyone your doing good.My target is now 75 days.
Hell yeah getting to elite with a struggle, but a milestone nonetheless, lets keep this up
Honestly, me neither... so, I mean my mind is in despair, and begging for me to watch literally ANYTHING what is porn related, for example I just realized yesterday that I was typing "twerk videos" in the search bar on youtube, but I just closed the windows before I could click to any of them.
Yesterday was hard, a real battle, but I have won. I still feel shitty, and I made my training a little bit harder, so I started to quite caffeine in cold turkey, this is DAY1. I like the challenges, I like to become better and I know there is something wrong if you are simply feel peace.
The lack of conflicts leads you to stagnation. I have muscle sore from working out, headaches from quitting caffeine, strong urges from nofap... I FEEL ALIVE!
I see my coworkers, they are on booze, drugs, do not working out, do not read books, they do not seek discomfort, so they are walking towards rotting. Usually they smoke 2 packs of cigarettes a day, but they depend on in, and they are desperate if they can't get that poison what leads to sickness and death. I remember my battle with the nicotine monster, it was hard, but now I'm free. I can freely use my money, I can freely go to anywhere where smoking is not permitted. It worth it.
I don't know what it is, but getting to Day Fifteen is a drag. I feel like I'm on Day Seventeen. I keep rechecking the calander and counting the days. I don't know if it's one of those "Today feels like Wednesday, not Tuesday" things or what. But this week is really dragging out.
day 6 achieved
Day 5 check in
Checking in, I'm still here, three days...
Day 3 competed
Day 90. The big one. But the training doesn't stop.
Day 3 done
Day 15! Getting a little stronger each day.
Today I had the most difficult time! In the afternoon I felt tired and unmotivated and I guess the intent to act-out were already in the back of my head for some time. Then I had the idea to buy the cable which would enable me to access internet again from home to do "some tasks". But I was honest with myself and had to admit that the reasons why I would need internet at home today were minimal (besides that it would be against my commitment). My cunníng mind didn't produce any porn fantasies or any explicit urges, to go to a p-site for example. BUT I nearly became hard from just the thought of buying that damn cable. So I said to myself: I need to hear "urge-surfing" right now. Urge-surfing is a wonderful practice where you just observe the urge and relax. I have two different podcasts, instructional urge-surfing so to speak.
Alone having put on the earphones and listening to the voice helped me to switch from a craving to a calm mind. I went out and used internet in a public place to write this report.
To make a long story short: On Day 14, just before my first promotion I nearly snapped. But I survived and look forward to become an "elite warrior" tomorrow. It really means something to me!
Sometimes it's hard to keep going, in that situation what you just described I'm just browsing nofap forum for more inspiration and achieve the proper mindset. If you do not brows this forum you will browse other things, and the whole internet and this society is encouraging you to fap and watch porn, because these people brainwashed to believe this hypersexual society is healthy.
No, we need balance not sexual extremism.
Sometimes the best thing just resting a day. Eat something and watch a movie it can help a lot.
The fact that you are analyzing your patterns like this and finding ways to deal with it is a huge step forward. Keep listening to such podcasts and keep checking in here every time you feel any urge. Do consider writing a diary too. Just write it out everytime you have an urge. It helps a lot. Trust me I've been where you are and I think you are on the right path if you really controlled your urge like that. Keep fighting.