THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Day 27.... Edged hard time. But then I thought of my streak and come back to senses. Was just few steps away from watching P. Was little high and Watched some weird anime but not P and hope everything will be alright from now on.

 

Day 150: Super Saiyan 3 ---> Super Saiyan God!

Finally! I have long awaited!

 

Great achievement. Keep on rising!

 

Day 10 was a good day I felt happy.

 

Relapsed, after 37 days.

I guess I know what happened. I didn't PMO for that time, but I didn't improve my life in other areas either. The result was that, for someone with an unhappy life, removing PMO from it only left me with an unpleasant reality without a way to escape from or cope with it. For most of my streak, I was only continuing out of habit. I obeyed the rules of "no P, M, or O", but only to the letter - in spirit I was fantasizing, I was searching (without looking or peeking), I would go places where I knew people would post P, only so I could quickly avert my eyes, having seen it without feeling guilty for seeking it out. At some point, when lust had actually left me, I was so bored and miserable I realized that I actually missed my urges, because at least fighting them involved feeling something other than boredom.

I learned a lot, at least. I learned that if you wait long enough, eventually the urges will leave you, and you'll be left in a state where sexual thoughts are far away from you, and your thoughts will be as clear as if you had just O'd. This was the first roadblock, that took me probably six months to get over - I would always give in when the urges got the strongest, because I really thought they would never leave me if I didn't.

I guess the next step in my journey is to do more to improve my life than just NoFap - I don't just have to remove this cycle of shame from my life, I have to make the rest of it an improvement over the mind-numbing boredom that occurs when the fight against yourself is actually over.

P.S.
I'm not really sure what specifically counts for what - I watched a couple minutes of a P video, but only from the first part, before anything graphical actually happened. And then, after I closed it, I O'd from fantasy, without actually doing M. Since the rules are no P, M, or O, at the very least the last one applies, but I'm still glad I didn't go as far as I could have. Hopefully that will at least save some of my progress.

 

Great. It takes a lot of willpower to make it to such a high number.
Just don't let your guard down and keep pushing.

 

Day 5.

 

Day 41!

 

Very good that you analyzed your relapse and found the causes.
Good luck in your next streak and on improving your life in general.
It will be a long tough process but you can do it!

 

Day 18 completed.
As @ClassicSea5012 said, the urges are temporary.
If you let them be eventually they'll let you be as well.

 

It takes time for good things to happen. You are on right path mate. Patience is required to see some real changes. I procrastinate a lot, even after I had a streak of 150+ days and many smaller streaks but now a days I am doing 1 hr of gym per day and studying new technologies with my job too and still it feels like I am not doing enough. I guess no PMO gives you urge to do more.
There was a time when I was doing nothing. So sometimes it takes time. We just have to try our best and not give up to this shitty stuff.

 

Day 3, yesterday I had a few urges but I pulled through.

 

I tried to cheat in todays exam and it backfired on me, I hope I don't fail in todays exam. I need to study hard and all I did was time waste.
Day 17 check in

 

Day 3

 

I can feel you man, it really is a struggle, a tough fight to get out of this shit addiction.
And it's good to remember what a horrible industry it is.
When the urges hit me and I think of how X extreme fantasy would be cool to act out in real life, it would be good to remember that the people doing these extreme shit in porn are psychologically damaged. All evidence points to that.
I don't want to be psychologically damaged anymore, nor any Saiyan brother here for that matter.
So let's fight with all we've got and rise out of this gutter!

 

Don’t give up!