Checking in Saiyan's, Day 416 free of porn and Day 344 free of MO. My brothers, we reach the end of 2021 (for some of you it's already 2022, depending on where you are in the world) For me personally, this has been a long and challenging year. I look back and see a lot of suffering, especially in the first 7-8 months of that year. Insomnia, extreme fatigue, anger, anxiety, dark periods of depression, feelings of hopelessness and amongst many other things. I considered everything I went through in withdrawal (and continue to go through on certain flare up days) a toll, a toll that I had to pay for my years of mindless addiction, my years of running from myself , my emotions and certain situations. With all that being said, I look back in pride on my achievements this year and the progress that I have made. As you can see from my counters, I MOed 1 time in early 2021 without porn. I remember how angry I was that I did it. The insomnia was so unbearable that my temptation demon snuck in, and tricked me into thinking that 1 MO session and a handful of edging sessions prior to that day, would release me from my torment. Spoiler, it wasn't. 344 days later, I realize that it was an important lesson along my journey. That 1 moment, pushed me to stay away from both MO and any form of edging, on top of porn. I learned that we are the seeds we water in our garden, meaning the more you engage in sexual fantasy, the more it will arise in your mind. I learned that abstinence, is only a piece of the puzzle. We must also cultivate positive habits, continue to study success stories and the harms, engage and observe our emotions, challenge persistent negative thoughts, expose ourselves to what we fear, look into our nutrition, exercise and look into the harms of excess/artificial amounts of dopamine hits. There is a lot more work to be done in 2022 and I look forward to fighting onwards with all of you, my friends. Happy New Year, I wish you all the best to you and your friends and families. Stand tall Saiyans!