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I'm going to join this challenge!

 

Dreamt I was a superhero saving the world making friends being kind to others cleaning up my messes and things of that sort. It felt good. Feels good to be at elite warrior level. I’ll do extra Japa to maintain semen retention each time I go up a level here.

I am all purity suddhoham omomom
Sexless atman I am omomom
There is neither lust nor sexual Vasana in atman Om Om Om
Lust is mental vikara I am a sakshi of this vikara Om Om Om
I am asanga Om Om Om
My will is pure strong and irresistible Om Om Om
I am fully established in physical and mental Brahmacharya Om Om Om
I am feeling the purity now Om Om Om
Om purity Om purity Om purity Om purity Om purity Om purity

alright namaste

I’m resisting going back to M. It’s illegal for me to date her. And she ghosted me hard. But I still wake up some days thinking about just driving to her house and knocking on the door. Maybe with some flowers…. (T.t)

While I was dating her every time I saw my boss they intuitively knew to constantly tell me not to break the law and date M. Sooooooo

YEP

Don’t wanna deal with that. Also didn’t wanna deal with my mom saying she doesn’t like black people all the time so I stopped dating a black Girl. So no more black girlfriends either.

I don’t mind th e black thing, but I still feel I’d wanna see M sometimes.
She did a lotta bad things tho. She didn’t trust me anymore she quit easy she didn’t try to work things out instead she just angrily interrogated me looking for endless dealbreakers that just weren’t there. When id explain myself she’d just start crying and beating herself up.

because she’d realize I wasn’t a bad guy and she was essentially just being unreasonable. Blah

=_= sighs I guess I can’t date her

it’s her disengaging strategy. To like get critical and dig for dealbreakers in order to distance herself so she feels safe and like she won’t get hurt. Attachment theory

she would stare at me and say things like you can’t leave me you have to stay you can’t have friends thatre girls you can’t look at other girls. She’d sometimes realize that was overkill tho.

maybe next month I show up on her doorstep eh? Feb 1st was my original plan to start dating then anyways

but of course here I am dating about a week early. That’s close enough S2

I’m jacked and I have nice style now. Classy bohemian. When I talk to girls I feel much more confident

I decided yesterday that I didn’t want to ask girls to just be friends when I meet them and we’re hitting it off, I’ll ask them if they want to do some activity.

if I really want to be just friends and nothing else at the time of meeting them then yeah I’ll ask to be friends

I only had one of those. I said I like your sticker lol and we chatted and I stopped flirting and just became a friend. It was cool. The other one was lesbian and we were friends off an app. The other one I asked out and she said as friends? I agreed but wanted more

if it were today I would’ve said honestly I’d like to maybe be more than just friends with you but I’d be happy to make a friend too. Because I do like having female friends even if it’s non romanchicca

dating apps are tough. Good to get practice in talking to girls though. I think if I got a picture of me looking very boho classy in a lovely environment it’d be legit. I got no one to take the pic though my moms traveling.

I have these feelings

I don’t want to fight them

but it seems I must

maybe it’s the right thing to do

you fight the urge to skip work

or school on a Monday morning

why not fight the urge to date a girl

everyone says is no good for me

even the law says no

a girl I became so sleep

deprived and compromised my

Self care for

someone my boundaries crumbled

around

and I felt, “this is unhealthy”

a girl I thought was

the love of my life

will I ever be able to say

in my heart

farewell~

saiyonara?

 

Thank you. I will. I got this!

 

What a legend!

 

Spermatorrea

shoot

it was oddly that I updated my status on here

for some reason that triggered me

oh well I’m just not gonna update my status anymore and keep a tally of times I’ve accidentallly ejaculated kinda tired of resetting the counter every time I wet dream. I’m trying to not post any triggering info.

 

Yeah somehow it was updatin my status that caused me trouble go figure. ?_?

But I guess I’m still doing everything else. Datings going well I suppose. I’m reconnected with my family. Exercise still consistent. Have a few friends but the only one that’s like not a potential is probably my ex who is basically married. She’s the only one I can talk to about stuff and not feel like I’m having to be like as careful about saying something that might be a “dealbreaker”

I dunno anyone got any advice for avoiding wet dreams?

I feel like getting triggered by just updating my status on here is kind of sad. Like how could that be the trigger for me? I can just not update that status that’s not that big a deal although I did enjoy knowing I was going up the ranks made it more fun

sighs

well good morning. Hope we’re all doing well. Now I got a warning I’m scared to like actually post about the people I’m talking to even if I’m not describing anything about physical contact or their appearance……

errrrr

 

okay so uh ommmm darn you spermatorrea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



-_-

I need to paper journal my dreams and not post on here till like later in the day

 

okay so I decided to start fantasizing. I think my intense reluctance to not touch anyone in my mind has backfired and caused me to be uncomfortable with touching females. I had a wet dream and like wasn’t even touching anyone while I came I was just looking at a girl. What?

Lol

it’s kinda funny to me

I’m kinda funny

yeah right now I’m just tried fantasizing about an actress I’ll probably do the prana mudra so it doesn’t make me feel tired while fantasizing.

I’m wary for now to think of people I actually know while doing it, but word it’ll all workout

I think it’ll be good to eventually do that. I honestly don’t like fantasizing. So I might just continue trying to keep my streak while not doing it because it just makes me feel kinda tired after. Nen don’t like feel tired

In the past eighteen days I’ve had crazy energy and drive. I just like exercise work text girls date them and keep going nonstop with a smile on my face and energy to spare

even getting my covid booster and feeling lethargic from that hasn’t completely slowed me down. I’m still doing everything I just have to take a de load week at the gym because personal records weren’t happen.

I guess I do need to try out fantasizing •_•

hehe that’s a cute face

I can control myself

my main concerns are that it will make me feel too tired

and that it will cause me to become too promiscuous

I’m committed to not sexing any girls unless they’re like kanojo material

just cause I want sex isn’t reason enough to sleep with a girl unless I wanna be with her for real like exclusively and I get the vibe she feels same S2

I have so much jewelry Haha

I guess I’m gonna fantasize about other girls now. T.T Buddha please make my relationship with them better for fantasizing about them or help me maintain my semen retention and have great long non ejaculatory sex for life without any fantasizing

I think Buddha said yes to fantasizing hm

for me though. Not for everyone. Make your own choice wisely. This is dangerous waters here .

I’m over my exes. If they come back I’ll just be friends. I’ve moved on from my exes but we can still be friends

Yep
Word

my ex L helped me spruce up my dating profiles. Gonna get a pic of me looking good at like some kinda outdoor place or a restaurant. Just gotta wait for mom or make a friend out here

I tried to be friends with S and hang but like she just wanted to text and considered it a date if we hung out in person. I mean we dated before but I considered us friends with potential at the moment, perhaps it was too much for her.

she’s got good qualities hopefully she’ll come around hehe. And lay me!!!!! Rofl

She would move slow I think. I’m not one to rush the process but trust the process. Despite being a very sensual person. I’m respectful of girls boundaries. And when I’m interested in a girl in person I won’t ask for dates. I just ask if as friends they would like to go out for x activity. That way we can start as friends and get to know each other, much better.

also I don’t have to pay! Lol !

and I can make a friend if they have a bf because they know I didn’t ask for a date up front I asked to be friends. And I think they know friends can always have potential to transition into dating. Whatever. I’m good enough. My way is good enough.

alright guess I’m gonna go intentionally fantasize about S from the gym. Shrugs idk what else to do. May this somehow improve my friendship with S.

Oh ya I had my first date in forever yesterday. Off hinge. I got a hug in at the end it was cool. We talked for a few hours and split bill. Thanks J! Then got tea after. The Chinese food was so good and plentiful Aw yeah ^-^

I only date girls that I have a chance of getting with. Like even if the chance is low like just don’t sex them and it’s fine. It’s not leading them on because they do have some chance even if it’s low. I don’t date black girls though because my parents don’t approve and I’m not interested in going against them on that considering there are like so many other races I can date and I haven’t been that into black girls anyways. Although I did like one and she was like couldn’t date an older guy so whatever

we could be friends if she wanted but I don’t need her as a friend tbh I’m good

I am sexual healing

word

amen

my room is gorgeous I feel like me and my life are just beautifying daily

I am an inspiring person. Whoever talks to me becomes better and vice versa. I need to sleep. And reread these after I post them. For editing purposes on the next one.

I do like Gym and Movie girl. They’re hot. Tall and lean with their own hobbies that’s what I’m into for sure S2

Gonna ask them to hang out as friends after chatting them up at the gym and theatre have become comfortable enough we both seem ready to try to be friends and hang out. But then I don’t want to bring S to the theatre so MG (movie girl) won’t see me with another girl and wrongly assume that’s my gf.

maybe me and S can movie elsewhere. Ah S lives nearby with her parents like me so cool. I guess I gotta go fantasize about her now…..Buddha help me.

thanks Buddha and everyone here S2