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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Deleted Account, Mar 11, 2019.
Day 7 - Low-Class Warrior
Great job that you have cancelled all subscriptions!! Now try to get some momentum going. Goodluck.
Well, it is a funny story. I decided to put an avatar before joining any challenge, so I didn't think about using any character about them. I created my character in an anime avatar creator:
CHARAT BIGBANG | Boy's Dress up Maker
Hope it helps
Hey guys, im having a hard time.
I suffer from insomnia and im starting to crave dopamine hits like alcohol, drugs or masturbation. I am having a lot of stress from school.
Checking in Saiyans!
Day 393 free of MO and day 2 free of Porn.
My mind has been playing tug of war, at certain moments yesterday. It's interesting that even a minor amount of numbing, brings forth a great desire. I suppose it reawakens the neuropathway of addiction, lights a spark. I was using logic to contradict the pull, exposing the desire for the liar and the thief it was. The fantasy would not occur to me, it would be just that..fiction. It would be a thief of my time, of the present moment. Interactions with real people and the real world.
I also woke up in the middle of the night , with this fear of impending doom. Very strange. Anxiety has been heightened again. I believe those who experience PAWs, are those who have burned out their central nervous system, more precisely overused their fight or flight response/adrenaline release, will evoke reaction from minor stressors. That takes time to heal. Regardless, along the journey of overcoming PAWs/burnout, the tolerance to stressors becomes greater, but there is also a "Pop-up" effect, where the symptoms resurge. It's important in those moments to continue your self-care, to use tools ,such as meditation, to put out the flame of a fight or flight response or even to tame the release of adrenaline. All this, to heal your response to stressors back to normal. For example, I experienced a feeling of overwhelm this morning, when I went to shovel the snow early on in the day. My mind automatically focused on the body warming up, the tension of overwhelm build up and the crappy humid weather, which made it difficult to breath. I suppose due to elevated cortisol levels in the mornings, I'm more prone to that feeling of overwhelm. That overwhelm is a feeling I dread and in many instances I may attempt to avoid it. But as I've mentioned many times, avoidance is the root cause of any addiction. I would take breaks, breath and explain to myself that this feeling is a lie, I'm quite active and this type of "chore" is nothing for me. I reminded myself that I use to love exercising in humid weather, as it was much more challenging and much more rewarding. When I finished, I went back in to meditate, to bring myself back to a norm level of composure. Writing out this entire situation makes it seem silly to me, but these are the instances that I need to conquer, small and seemingly unimportant, but necessary to teach my CNS to remain composed and regain its vigor.
Take a shower before going to sleep (cold if urges arise)
check in day 88.
One day at a time
slow and steady progress
adds up to a lot over time
So we draw a little closer
it gets a little warmer
each time I
like you more
but I must not
swear fantasize or empty chair
know my boundaries
Get to know you
keep my boundaries
get to keep you
may it be so
I have had some urges, especially in the morning. But now, if I ignore them, they disappear completely within one hour. Before I could have an urge the whole day. And definitely, each time that this PMO thing arrives in my head I give a lot of importance to this challenge. I say I won't allow myself to trash all this progress, and only this gives me the strength to follow. I don't think about the benefits, my only motivation now is to reach 90th and see what happens. It is a personal commitment with me and with you Saiyans.
Train hard ...
Day 15 was mostly good without issue except a news article popped up advertising girls from a celebrity TV show doing only fans. We get it - lots of women are taking advantage of this world and the sad pathetic way it is, why is this news?!! It's not fucking news. Disgusted at how these low-quality women are being advertised and earning a shit ton of money for things like this and the fact they're being promoted by the mainstream.
Anyway, Elite Warrior now! Let's go!
Day 8 - Low-Class Warrior
Decided to jump over to here in addition to the LOTR challenge. I just really like the DBZ theming honestly. I'll be starting off on day 0 and working my way upwards to super Saiyan
Time to get motivated!
Lets become legends
15 days until next rank