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Day 18!

Before nofap I was 12 or 13 years into pmo and 17 years into mo.
While I do nofap I had maybe more than 60 relapse.

 

Day 3

 

Day 144! Never give up.

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

23 Days Free of PMO.

I have some analysis that needs to be taken care of today and rest day regarding working out.

Feeling much better today, just slightly tired. Wim Hof breathing has really been instrumental in eviscerating my anxiety. I've been at it for about a month, alongside daily meditation. I highly recommend trying it out.


Imagine for yourself a character, a model personality whose example you determine to follow in private as well as in public -Epictitus


Keep training!

 

Day 4

So yesterday, I woke up twice. Dreamt two dreams and first I woke up tearing up and crying. I knew what it was about but I don't know else it means. Then Second, something to do with forgetting my gym bag. When I found it, there a man and woman when I found it. I think they could be siblings but found the woman attractive. Yes, was tall and long blond hair. I don't know what else that about. Before and after going to bed, I was feeling small urges too. I don't want to make others relapse but I am not going to lie. I was thinking about p**sy. Women with cute face, nice hair, and nice figure. Small urges. Damn, I might have done it but it didn't. Coincidentally, I have been seeing cute and attractive woman at the gym when I workout starting this journey. (I.g. One crush gym that I really like and the gym are also crushes but not too strong though).

Does crying have to do with no PMO SR/NoFap? Anyone experience this?

Any way, feeling a bit more calm but I still I tend to get angry a bit more. Sleep schedule is getting better. Skin/face seems to be glowing slowly. I will have to start fasting eventually not right now because I used to do it mainly diet tool. Because in the past, I have stopped. I couldn't fast because mainly of masturbation. I would break my fast because of this. I think it should not be much of a problem now since I'm SR/No PMO now. I feel that I can hold eye contact more steady now. But I don't look at others because they might take it the wrong way. Still training.

 

Day 19

 

Day 145!

 

Checking in Saiyan's !

24 Days Free of PMO.

I had a good nights rest yesterday, felt a bit of an urge this morning through a flashback but I did not give into it. I mentioned this in the past, we have no control (half lie) over what pops into our head but we do have control over what we do when it presents itself. Let it pass like a cloud or engage with it.

The half lie is, what you consume will present itself more often into your mind. I.e the more porn you consume, the more you fantasize, the more reoccurring those flashbacks will be.


Rest day today, meditation, exposure, reading and work.

Some notes from my readings of Marcus Aurelius Meditations:

"Attend to the matter which is before thee, whether it is an opinion or an act or a word. Thou sufferest this justly: for though chooses rather to become good tomorrow than to be good today."

To which I take, come face to face with what comes your way today and attend to the matter.

Stoicism really is such a fascinating subject, a wealth of wisdom to learn from.

Keep training!

 

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Day 4.

I'm terribly sorry for being absent all these times. I had so much problems during the summer, and I couldn't have the time to post here. I was really stressed out, depressed, and I was also being taken advantage of.

I was dating this one girl on Whatsapp since February. She claimed to be in the U.S. Navy and to be 35 years old. But sadly it didn't end well, especially after I found out last week that she was a fraud and a scammer. She kept making me waste all my heard earned money on those stupid gift cards every damn time. She made me buy them for a phone upgrade, for internet connection, for a hospital bill, for food, etc. I couldn't save enough money for myself, I couldn't even buy anything for myself anymore because of her. And not to mention that she was really toxic. She gaslighted me a lot; she manipulated me, she guilt tripped me if I didn't get enough money for a gift card, she falsely accused me of things I never said or did, she rushed me a lot... especially when I couldn't keep getting enough money for a stupid gift card.

I couldn't take it anymore! Last week, I decided to look up online to see if why would soldiers ask a civillian to buy a gift card for help. And I found out from that research that it's a scam, and that's when I also found out that my so called "girlfriend" was a scammer and a fraud. And she had lied to me 100% since the very beginning. And guess what? I fucking blocked her ass on Whatsapp and on Google Chat. After that, I went to seek help on reporting her for fraud and for scam.

I felt like an idiot for falling for her lies and her scam. I knew that it was a horrible mistake on spending money on gift cards for a person that I never even met in real life. If only I had known about this military romance scam months ago, I would've blocked her sooner.

That's why I couldn't keep posting here on NoFap. But I'm back now. I hope everyone could forgive me for being absent.

 

For dating online
#1 tip Never send anyone money.

Doesn't matter how it they look. That is a huge red flag! Welcome back

 

Day 20

@MJ93 welcome back brother
That's terrible to hear. You can just learn from your failure and as LLOYYD said, don't send money to people you don't know!